evi's memoir

Embracing Royalty

2008-04-14T18:22:00.004+07:00

Galatians 3:25-29 & Galatians 4:4-7

But now you have arrived at your destination: by faith in Christ you are in direct relationship with God. Your baptism in Christ was not just washing you up for a fresh start. It also involved dressing you in an adult faith wardrobe - Christ's life, the fulfillment of God's original promise. In Christ's family there can be no division into Jew and non-Jew, slave and free, male and female. Among us you are all equal. That is, we are all in a common relationship with Jesus Christ. Also, since you are Christ's family, then you are Abraham's famous "descendant," heirs according to the covenant promises... You can tell for sure that you are now fully adopted as his (God) own children because God sent the Spirit of his Son into our lives crying out, "Papa! Father!" Doesn't that privilege of intimate conversation with God make it plain that you are not a slave, but a child? And if you are a child, you're also an heir, with complete access to the inheritance.

Matthew 10:1,5-10
He called his twelve disciples to him and gave them authority to drive out evil spirits and to heal every disease and sickness... These twelve Jesus sent out with the following instructions: "Do not go among the Gentiles or enter any town of the Samaritans. Go rather to the lost sheep of Israel. As you go, preach this message: 'The kingdom of heaven is near. Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. Do not take along any gold or silver or copper in your belts; take no bag for the journey, or extra tunic, or sandals or a staff; for the worker is worth his keep.

I. WEALTH

Being a royalty, is not about having wealth but having sufficiency.

In Matthew, Jesus says, "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!"

II. PRIVILEGE

"And if your are a child, you're also a heir, with complete access to the inheritance." Galatians 4:7

Being a royalty is not about having privileges, but sharing those privileges.

As you go, preach this message: 'The kingdom of heaven is near. Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give.

III. STATUS

Being a royalty is not about having status, but giving respect.

"Among us you are all equal. That is, we are all in a common relationship with Jesus Christ."

IV. POWER & AUTHORITY

He called his twelve disciples to him and gave them authority to drive out evil spirits and to heal every disease and sickness...

Being a royalty is not about having power and authority, but helping others with your power and authority.

As quoted from Spiderman, "With great power, comes great responsibility."

sang pelukis

2007-09-17T00:16:00.000+07:00

Suatu hari ada seorang pelukis terkenal sedang menyelesaikan lukisannya. Lukisan ini adalah lukisan yang sangat bagus dan akan diperlihatkan pada suatu pameran besar.

Sang pelukis sangat senang ketika menyelesaikan lukisannya. Sambil memandangi lukisannya yang berukuran 2x8m itu, tanpa disadari si pelukis telah berjalan mundur.

Dan ketika berjalan mundur pelukis tersebut tidak melihat ke belakang. Dia terus berjalan mundur hingga di belakangnya adalah ujung dari gedung tersebut yang tinggi sekali dan tinggal satu langkah lagi dia akan mengakhiri hidupnya.

Salah seorang melihat pelukis tersebut dan hendak berteriak untuk memperingatkan pelukis tersebut. Tetapi tidak jadi, karena dia berpikir mungkin ketika mendengar teriakannya, pelukis itu akan kaget dan malah jatuh ke belakang.

Kemudian orang tersebut mengambil kuas dan cat yang ada di depan lukisan tersebut, lalu mencoret-coret lukisan si pelukis tersebut sampai rusak. Pelukis tersebut sangatlah marah dan maju hendak memukul orang tersebut. Tetapi beberapa orang yang ada di situ menghadang dan memperlihatkan posisi pelukis tadi yang nyaris jatuh.

Kadang-kadang kita telah melukiskan masa depan kita dengan sangat bagus dan memimpikan suatu hari yang indah bersama dengan pasangan yang kita idamkan. Tetapi lukisan itu kelihatannya dirusak oleh Tuhan, karena Tuhan melihat bahaya yang ada pada kita kalau kita melangkah.

Kadang-kadang kita marah dan jengkel terhadap Tuhan atau juga terhadap pemimpin kita. Tapi perlu kita ketahui Tuhan selalu menyediakan yang terbaik untuk kita.

mutual funds and cat fights

2007-08-19T02:13:00.000+07:00

on one fine, busy working day... ibu vivi asked me to invest in mutual funds. says the company's going to invest in it and that i should invest too. then followed by sun's introduction to me about mutual funds as well. i think it's time to reformulate investments skills.

schrodres... fortis... which one should i invest in?

had a fight with my bf yesterday. think it's the longest we ever fought. about my insensitivity and our communication problems. glad we patched it up though. i think both of us need to work harder to improve situation. i always like improvements anyway.

back to the mutual funds investments.... i think i better do more research. ughhhhhhhhh...

headache

2007-07-09T23:26:00.000+07:00

just been back to work and it's already giving me headache. :(

sometimes, i really wish i have lower expectations and lesser responsibilities in life. like what spiderman said, with great power comes great responsibilities.

i wish i had more feminine responsibilities.

:(

on personal life, it seems quite stressful over here in my side.

linda's birthday at cengkeh

2007-07-05T03:01:00.001+07:00

linda's 30th birthday on 30th june 2007. lister, lister's wife, sun, me, kev & lin. tried out some old photos effect on my own. :)

i'm taking three days leave to relax. yayyyy... yayyy.... hip hip hooray... :)

life as coffee - hidup bagaikan kopi

2007-06-30T01:13:00.000+07:00

cerita lama tapi kebenaran dalam pesannya hidup terus

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sekumpulan alumni, sangat sukses dalam karir mereka, berkumpul bersama untuk mengunjungi profesor universitas mereka. pembicaraan lambat laun berubah menjadi keluhan tentang stres dalam pekerjaan dan kehidupan.

menawarkan tamu-tamunya kopi, sang profesor pergi ke dapur dan kembali bersama satu pot besar kopi dan bermacam-macam cangkir: porselen, plastik, kaca, beberapa kelihatan biasa dan beberapa mahal dan menawan, berkata kepada mereka untuk mengambil sendiri kopi panas itu.

ketika semua siswa memiliki secangkir kopi di tangan, sang profesor berkata:

"kalau kalian perhatikan, semua cangkir yang kelihatan bagus dan mahal sudah terambil, meninggalkan yang biasa dan murah. ketika normal bagi kalian untuk hanya mau menginginkan yang terbaik bagi diri kalian sendiri, itu adalah sumber dari masalah dan stres. yang kalian inginkan hanyalah kopi, bukan cangkirnya, tapi kalian dengan sadarnya mengambil cangkir-cangkir yang terbaik dan saling melihat cangkir orang lain."

"sekarang, jika hidup adalah kopi, maka pekerjaan, uang, dan posisi dalam masyarakat adalah cangkirnya. mereka hanyalah alat untuk menahan dan menyimpan hidup, tapi kualitas hidup tidaklah berubah. kadangkala, dengan hanya berkonsentrasi pada cangkirnya, kita gagal untuk menikmati kopi yang ada didalamnya."

jangan biarkan cangkir itu mengendalikan kalian... sebaliknya, nikmatilah kopinya.

i'm back...

2007-06-30T00:42:00.000+07:00

equipped with my new macbook and free wireless network connection from my neighbour (only know his/her modem as 'netgear'), i am finally back to blogging.

yayyyyyyyyyy...

my bf says the owner to my unknown free wireless network a.k.a NETGEAR is probably someone who's not too familiar with tech, since he/she didn't change the name of his/her wireless modem. i pray that my unknown source has unlimited internet access and that he/she will let me use his/her access to internet.

yayyyyyyyyyyy... again

anyway, work has been EXTREMELY BUSY. personal life's been busy too. it's only 12.48 AM on this saturday morning and i already have my weekend planned.

in a few hours, i have to wake up at 6.30 AM, drive to work at 7.30 AM and reach my mum's office at 8 AM. i'm meeting my mum's client at 8.30 AM together with my mum. once that finishes, i'll probably drop by to the office. then i have to be at Neeps before 10.30 AM. kevin's introducing our company to the photographers, have to be there to support him. although the whole seminar finishes at 1-ish PM, i have to leave before noon. have lunch with my bf then off to the 9th festival komputer indonesia. i'm sure i'll have an eye opener and hopefully get some good deals off a new laptop bag. then i'll have to leave around 4-ish PM to get back home to get a shower. have to be in cengkeh resto & lounge at juanda. linda's having her birthday there. ugggh... i still haven't got her any present. geez.... i have to go to plaza indonesia tomorrow after neeps.

sunday's another busy day with church at 10 or 11.45 AM, then followed by Pak Kribo's daughter marriage together with the celebration of Pak Adi's son being circumcised. location's at tangerang area. have to reconfirm to sun if he wants to drive me there or not, since he seems kind of tired the last few days. then we have a family dinner at limi's apartment in pantai mutiara at 6 PM.

seems like activities for the weekend is more packed than the weekday's work.

can't wait till my leave comes. 5th and 6th july.... hmnnn...

ok. gotta sleep now. nite.

Warnings...

2007-02-12T15:27:00.000+07:00

WARNING: It looks greener, it has to be grass.
Our real lives are usually better than we are willing to admit.

WARNING: It won't make a difference.
It is often the little things, that are left UNSOLVED, that bring destruction.

WARNING: It's just a small lie.
Lying, of all sin, is against GOD first and foremost.

WARNING: Live for the day.
Decisions made for short-term pleasure always bring long-term grief.

WARNING: If only god knew what I know.
God knows best, and His plan for you is based on His love for you.

God who Fulfils All

2007-01-15T16:44:00.000+07:00

'Fulfill' means:
- to carry out a prophecy or a promise.
- to carry out a task/work to do, that would achieve some result
- supplies, or stocks, or provisions

God has a plan for every situation in life.
God has a tool to do his plan.
God's plan needs our obedience.

1 Kings 17:10-24

the month of marriages?

2007-01-03T15:01:00.000+07:00

and so i thought december is the month of marriage... i had to go to a few marriages!

but it seems like i wasn't exactly right. up till now, i got 6 weddings to go this month. 3 are my co-workers at dgra. 2 of them are my friends and the other one is my uncle.

phewwwwww...

true

2006-11-23T17:03:00.000+07:00

ryan cabrera

i won't talk
i won't breathe
i won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
i don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
i'm attatched to you
mmmm.....

i'm weak
it's true
cause i'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

i've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so i will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life i've waited
this is true

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
i'm afraid to move

i'm weak
it's true
i'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me

i've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so i will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life i've waited
this is true

i know when i go
i'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

i've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so i will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life i've waited
this is true

the moment you need

2006-11-09T18:00:00.000+07:00

Suatu kali seorang karyawan yang stress berkunjung ke seorang psikiater untuk berkonsultasi. Dia mengeluh karena pekerjaannya sehari-hari selalu membuatnya stress. Sang psikiater menden garkan dengan cermat dan berusaha mencari-cari penyebabnya. Karirnya berhasil. Gajinya baik. Bidang kerjanya adalah sesuatu yang diminatinya. Berjam-jam berlalu, sang psikiater berusaha mencari-cari penyebabnya.

Sekonyong-konyong dia melihat si klien sedang memakan snack yang ada di meja. Tiba-tiba dia bertanya, "Kalau kamu makan kue atau makanan, dan ada bagian yang enak dan tidak enak. Apakah kamu akan makan yang enak dulu atau yang tidak enak dulu."

Si klien menjawab bahwa jelas dia akan makan bagian yang enak dulu setelah itu baru menghabiskan yang tidak enak. Dengan segera sang psikiater itu menemukan bahwa demikianlah kebiasaan karyawan itu di tempat kerja. Dia akan mengerjakan bagian yang mudah dan enak dan yang disukainya dulu. Kemudian menghabiskan sisa harinya menyelesaikan pekerjaan yang tidak dia sukai dengan penuh keluh kesah dan gerutu. Dan dengan demikianlah dia mengakhiri hari-harinya dengan frustasi, karena separuh dari akhir kerjanya dilewati dengan kekesalan. Sang psikiater menyarankan agar dia mengubah pola kerjanya dan menyarankan jika ada bagian pekerjaan yang tidak disukai, diselesaikan terlebih dahulu. Tidak lama kemudian, si karyawan itu dapat menikmati hari-hari kerjanya.

Sejak kita kecil, kita pun telah diajarkan disiplin ini, yaitu disiplin menunda kenyamanan. Misalkan kita dididik agar kita menyelesaikan PR lebih dahulu baru boleh bermain keluar, baru boleh menonton TV. Orang tua kita menyuruh kita membersihkan kamar dulu, baru boleh jajan keluar, dst. Ya, sejak kecil kita belajar memang ada momen tidak enak yang kita lalui, sebelum sampai ke momen yang menyenangkan.

Hmm, dalam hidup kelihatannya selalu ada momen yang enak dan tidak enak. Kenapa ya? Kenapa sih, ngga semua momen dalam hidup kita itu enak semua?

* * *

Kata Pengkhotbah, untuk segala sesuatu ada waktunya. Ada waktu untuk lahir, ada waktu untuk meninggal, ada waktu untuk menanam, ada waktu untuk mencabut yang ditanam;
ada waktu untuk membunuh, ada waktu untuk menyembuhkan; ada waktu untuk merombak, ada waktu untuk membangun; ada waktu untuk menangis, ada waktu untuk tertawa; ada waktu untuk meratap; ada waktu untuk menari....

Terus terang saya berharap, kalau saja isi ayat ini, hanya mengatakan bahwa ada waktu untuk lahir, menanam, menyembuhkan, membangun, tertawa dan menari. Sayang, ya hidup ngga begitu. C'est la vie...that's life.

Akan tetapi, hey...kalo kita pikir-pikir lagi kan, sebetulnya Allah itu memegang kendali kok akan semua momen-momen yang terjadi dalam hidup kita. Pengkhotbah bilang bahwa Dia membuat segala sesuatu indah pada waktunya, bahkan Dia memberikan kekekalan dalam ha ti kita. Artinya ada maksud Allah dalam tiap-tiap momen yang kita lalui. Yang namanya momen itu sementara, tapi Tuhan bilang ada suatu kekekalan yang Allah kerjakan dalam hati kita. Allah membentuk hati kita untuk kekekalan!

Ingat Daud? Kita ingat dia sebagai seorang raja yang besar. Tapi bagaimana hidupnya sebelum menjadi raja. Daud tiba-tiba "dipecat" dari statusnya jadi menantu raja dan panglima. Bahkan dia jadi buronan. Saul berusaha membunuhnya. Dia hidup berpindah-pindah lari kesana kemari. Dia harus menyembunyikan keluarganya. Satu kali dia harus berpura-pura jadi orang gila untuk menyelamatkan nyawanya. Oh, Daud yang kemarin baru dipuja-puja sebagai pahlawan perang yang mengalahkan puluhan r ibu musuh, kemudian bertingkah laku seperti orang gila yang menetes-neteskan ludahnya. Satu kali dia mengalami kalah perang sampai istrinya ditawan. Katakan, apakah momen-momen ini momen yang menyenangkan?

Sengsara dan pilu.

Tapi bagaimana Daud melewati momen-momen ini? Kebanyakan mazmur-mazmurnya yang terbaik ditulisnya pada saat-saat kesukarannya. Pada saat dia dikejar-kejar musuh, pada saat dia jadi orang g ila, pada saat dia bersembunyi di padang gurun yang kering. Daud tidak melihat itu sebagai momen yang menyusahkan tetapi momen dalam hadirat Allah! He treasured every second of his moment with God. Allah membentuk dan mengubah Daud. Dan Daud mengubah keadaan. Ingat ada beberapa ratus orang yang ikut dalam perjalanan Daud. Mereka itu orang-orang yang stress, remuk hati, putus asa dan segala macam yang kacau-kacau. Tapi Daud mengubahkan mereka dan menjadikan mereka tentaranya yang perkasa. Daud mengubah momen-momen itu menjadi "better" dan bukannya "bitter".

Allah pasti punya maksud dalam segala momen yang kita lewati. Mungkin kita kesal karena kita kerja di perusahaan dan rasanya ngga ke mana-man a juga. Ngga naek-naek. Mengapa kita ngga syukuri dan nikmati momen-momen itu, Tuhan punya rencana, dan seperti yang Alkitab bilang "apa yang kita tuh ngga bisa pikirkan dan bayangkan itu yang Tuhan sediakan buat kita". Di situ kita belajar Allah selalu siap bahkan telah menyediakan berkat bagi kita.

Mungkin kamu suka sama seseorang tapi ngga bisa-bisa juga "jadian". Mungkin Tuhan pake momen-momen itu untuk ngebentuk kamu dan memurnikan cinta dan ketulusan kamu. Mungkin kamu jalan berkali-kali ama orang tapi putus melulu, mungkin karena Tuhan ingin kamu lewati momen-momen itu untuk nyiapin kamu untuk ketemu orang yang tepat. Apapun momen itu..just cherish and treasure it. Just seize the moment. For it is the moment where God is present in it. Dan setiap momen adalah karuniaNya.

Mungkin kita ngelewatin berbagai momen-momen yang melukakan. Karena Allah ingin melatih kita agar kuat mencintai orang-orang yang terluka. Agar kita mengerti apa itu cinta yang tulus.

Emang ngga enak melewati momen-momen tertentu. Terutama momen yang rasanya ngga ada kepastian. Kalau kita kesasar, dan ngga tau jalan keluar, bahkan k ita ngga tau, kapan nih kita bisa keluar. Tapi, toh Daud juga ngga tau pasti kapan dia harus menyelesaikan masa-masa pelariannya. But still he cherished the moments. Just like us. Just cherish the moment. Maybe it is the moment that we need. Pada akhirnya ada satu kepastian, yaitu bahwa Allah menciptakan setiap momen indah pada waktunya. Saatnya nanti kita lihat, bahwa apa yang bahkan kita ngga berani dan sanggup bayangkan, ternyata itu yang Tuhan sediakan untuk kita.

generosity

2006-09-17T14:12:00.000+07:00

you have two friends, one is generous and the other is selfish. who would you like to spend time with? the generous or the selfish? most people would probably choose the generous ones without a doubt.

but let's think again. who do we want to be? the generous friend or the selfish one? if we choose to spend time with the generous friend, then we are the ones who are selfish. and vice versa. we are often able to judge others, but when the situation comes to us, we could not judge at it clearly.

if you want to be the generous friend, then start spending time with selfish friends. :)

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17 september 2006 sermon notes
rev. dave kenney

i. god is generous

acts 20:35
in everything i did, i showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the lord yesus himself said: "it is more blessed to give than to receive."

ii. god wants to protect us

timothy 6:9-10
people who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and distruction. for the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.

timothy 6:17-19
command those who are rich in this present world not be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in god, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment. commend them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share. in this way they will lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life.

chasing after money causes many dangerous problems.
we need to put our hope in good instead of money.
we are commanded to be generous.
when we are generous, we store treasure in heaven.

iii. we gain when we are generous

acts 20:1-4
at caesarea there was a man named cornelius, a centurion in what was known as the italian regiment. he and all his family were devout and god-fearing; he gave generously to those in need and prayed to god regularly. one day at about three in the afternoon he had a vision. he distinctly saw an angel of god, who came to him and said, "cornelius!" cornelius started at him in fear. "what is it, lord?" he asked. the angel answered, "your prayers and gifts to the poor have come up as a memorial offering before god."

our generous gifts to those in need are offerings to god.

2 corinthians 5:6-11
remember this: whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for god loves a cheerful giver. and god is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. as it is written: "he has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor; his righteousness endures forever." now he who suppplies the seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. you will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to god.

god will return to us the same way we give.
we will gain spiritually as well as materially.
we will gain other riches in addition to the ones we give.
people will praise god because of us.

iv. we can all be generous

romans 12:6-8

we have different gifts, according to the grace given us. if a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. if it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others; let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.

generous with our time.
generous with our talent.
generous with out things.
be generous with what you have.

quarter life crisis

2006-09-11T01:56:00.000+07:00

had so much on my mind a few weeks back then. i guess i was just thinking too much.

quarter life crisis = stress = gastric attack

bad. one of the worst i've ever experienced. my usual doctor's prescription apparently wasn't working well. it made me stayed home for almost one whole week. lucky enough, my dear sis mentioned my condition to mira. mira then refered me to this internist. he got me back to back to work in just three days. :)

and now, i have lots of restrictions to food. hot, oily, sour is definitely out of the range. i love chilli so much, it's such a torture not having them. but having them torture me even more. haha. ironic, i guess.

just have to take life easy from now. most important of all, i've learnt to appreciate a lot of things more these days. thank god for that. my family doctor says, the most important thing is learning to cope with the stress and eat on time.

i'm greatful for all those people who were there while i was low. i'll love you guys. always.

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one thing for sure. gastric attack does burn the pocket.

on work

2006-08-23T17:31:00.000+07:00

it is really not easy to manage a group of people.

can someone lead by charisma and charm instead of force? i hate to lead by force. i hate to be emotional at work. i'm sure someone like anthony robbins can do it! motivate people by getting into their inner self.

i probably gotta learn how to do that. plus gotta learn to think and worry less. need to run off all the lines on my hands. seems like they are getting more and more by the day. need to rub them off. haha! :)

unpredictable...

2006-08-19T12:54:00.000+07:00

a lot of things are that way. we plan this. we plan that. and before you know it, it's gone with the wind.

that's just life isn't it? like the offwhite jacket... i liked it so, but it was not meant to be mine. no matter how hard i tried.

Bread Upon the Waters

2006-08-14T17:33:00.000+07:00

's Ecclesiastes 11 : 1-6

1 Cast your bread upon the waters,
for after many days you will find it again.

2 Give portions to seven, yes to eight,
for you do not know what disaster may come upon the land.

3 If clouds are full of water, they pour rain upon the earth.
Whether a tree falls to the south or the the north,
in the place where it falls, there will it lie.

4 Whoever watches the wind will not plant,
whoever looks at the clouds will not reap.

5 As you do not know the path of the wind,
or how the body is formed in a mother's womb,
so you cannot understand the work of God,
the Maker of all things.

6 Sow your seed in the morning,
and at evening let not your hands be idle,
for you do not know which willl succeed,
whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.

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there are so many great things in life that i should be doing... instead of watching the wind and looking at the clouds.

fallen

2006-08-08T11:41:00.000+07:00

by lauren wood

i can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true
i can't believe how i have fallen for you
and i was not looking, was content to remain
and it's ironic to be back in the game

you are the one who's led me to the sun
how could i know that i was lost without you...

and i want to tell you, you control my brain
and you should know that you are life in my veins

you are the one who's led me to the sun
how could i know that i was lost without you...

i can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true
i can't believe how i have fallen for you

and i was not looking, was content to remain
and it's erotic to be back in the game

unfocused

2006-08-06T10:39:00.000+07:00

there's so many things on my mind. so many things that i want to do. but i can't seem to figure out which ones to do first. which to focus first.

evi, you must learn to focus.
evi, you must learn to be patient.
evi, you must learn to strategize.

26...

2006-07-26T16:44:00.000+07:00

on 26 july 2006. as what julie said, "it only happens once in a lifetime... so you gotta celebrate it girl!"

:)

time of the month >< bday

2006-07-22T15:29:00.000+07:00

my bday's coming soon... and i'm in the "fat and grumpy" mode. work has been rather pushy... i'm trying not to think about it too much. it seems rather impossible! geez, sometimes it's so difficult to control the emotions.

26 is coming soon for me. an age to start being serious? hehe. i hope not anyway.

here's the things i wanna get, in the coming year or anything soon:

- a new 100ml polo ralph romance perfume for women, to replace the finished bottle
- holiday trip, relaxing at malya bandung
- a bigger wardrobe and shoe storing space
- a good message, in some nicely decorated spa
- meni & pedicure at posh salons
- some pamperings?

and what else eh? how come the list is kind of short? can't think of anything right now!

hooray...

2006-07-17T02:30:00.000+07:00

i'm moving on!

celebrated owen's bday today. met lots of people. visited eddy & cucu's new place. roomy, airy. i like it!

anyway, i got myself a pretty sweet and sexy blue dress. zara's further reduced sale. such a bargain! one great thing about being overweight... ;)

after the love has gone

2006-07-11T17:55:00.000+07:00

by david foster, jay graydon & bill champlin

for awhile to love was all we could do
we were young and we knew
and our eyes were alive
deep inside we knew our love was true
for awhile we paid no mind to the past
we knew love would last
every night somethin' right
would invite us to begin the dance

somethin' happened along the way
what used to be happy was sad
somethin' happened along the way
and yesterday was all we had
and oh after the love has gone
how could you lead me on
and not let me stay around
oh oh oh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
can love that's lost be found

for awhile to love each other with all
we would ever need
love was strong for so long
never knew that what was
wrong oh baby wasn't right
we tried to find what we had
till sadness was all we shared
we were scared this affair would lead our love into
somethin' happened along the way
yesterday was all we had
somethin' happened along the way
what used to be happy is sad

somethin' happened along the way
oh yesterday was all we had
and oh after the love has gone
how could you lead me on
and not let me stay around
oh oh oh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
can love that's lost be found

oh oh oh oh oh oh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
can love that's lost be found
oh woh woh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
can love that's lost be found

oh woh woh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
can love that's lost be found
oh woh woh
oh woh woh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
can love that's lost be found

woh woh woh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
can love that's lost be found
woh woh woh

buzzzzz.....

2006-06-16T19:11:00.000+07:00

buzy buzy buzy... ...

filled with work, social life, personal beauty needs... ... consuming the most time and effort would definitely be work!

anyway, i hope i can go on a long holiday. hopefully my boss knows the stress that i have been going through and let me take leave for the holiday! i need my holiday!!! i need my holiday!!!!!! BADLY!!!

am planning for HK trip end of this month. hope to do lots of shopping, de-stressing & stuff like that... maybe go to disneyland maybe (if i have enough time and $$$).... yayyyy!!! oh well, a creative imagination is all you need to be happy! costs you nothing! haha!

ughhh... i'm having gastric pain now. due to all the adrenaline that my body produces. just can't take all the rush and pressure very well. after all, i'm pampered. :)

A women...

2006-06-07T09:29:00.000+07:00

got it this forwarded email from juliana. think it's really true for both sexes.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A set of screwdrivers,
a cordless drill, and
A black lace bra.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
One friend who
Always makes her Laugh...
And one
Who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A good piece of furniture
not previously owned by
Anyone else in her family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
Eight matching plates,
Wine glasses with stems,
And a recipe for a meal that will
Make her guests feel honored.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A feeling of control over
Her destiny...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to fall in love
Without losing herself...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to quit a job
Break up with a lover
And confront a friend without ruining the friendship...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
When to try harder ... and
WHEN TO WALK AWAY.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
That she can't change
The length of her calves,
The width of her hips, or
The nature of her parents...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
That her childhood
May not have been
Perfect..but;
It's over....

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
What she would and
Wouldn't
Do for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to live alone...
even if
She doesn't like it.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
Whom she can trust,
Whom she can't,
And why she shouldn't
Take it personally.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
Where to go...
Be it to her best friend's kitchen table.
Or a charming inn in the woods...
When her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
What she can and can't accomplish
In a day...
A month.
And a year...

green...

2006-06-06T18:18:00.000+07:00

You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

take the test here.

helpppppp.....

2006-05-18T12:48:00.000+07:00

three of my goldfishes are sick. invested with virus. with red tails...

geez..... this is the first time they have gotten so sick since i bought them last year. no.... i do not want to lose them.

help help helppppp..... i'm taking them to the vet!

wait...

2006-05-12T18:12:00.000+07:00

and be patience. you might ask why? with time, every questions and doubts will be answered.

actually, i got my answer a long time ago. just that some stubborn, immatured part of me was still doubtful. today, i realized the answer, once again.

women... we all have gift they call intuition. cool huh?

god...

2006-05-08T18:33:00.000+07:00

you know what's best for me. please lead me to where you want me to be. please let me hear the things that you want me to hear. please guide me to do the things that pleases you.

amin.

good friday

2006-04-14T16:47:00.000+07:00

it's good friday today. unfortunately, unlike other christians, i did not go to church. not a very wise decision isn't it? anyway, i shall not explain... cos i know god would not want to listen to excuses.

our office is loaded with orders, so we have been having overtime since a week ago. fortunately, most of our employees are quite understanding and therefore they are all here today in the office. they have been in the office since 9 am in the morning. some department did not show up but they promised to finish up their orders yesterday and do overtime on saturday.

that day... someone said i had a tough mouth. yes... i can be really straight forward when critizising someone. the most difficult thing is to handle people. why? because human being are very complex. unpredictable. anyway, i definitely got lots to learn.

these days... i am back to my old self. cooking and baking. tried beef steak, mashed potatoes, chocolate cookie and fettucini carbonara. hmnnn... it's been so long since i last cooked often. cooking is like training muscle. if you do not cook often, you lose your skills. hope i get back mine soon! anyway, the worst thing about cooking here in indo is that... there is no one to be the scapegoat for all those cooking.

i'll be at lippo karawaci tomorrow. helping with the administration of this easter program. we'll be giving hiding 100.000 easter eggs, which has coupons inside. coupons exchangeable to peanuts and snacks... it's free. so come check it out okay!

in case you were wondering...

2006-04-05T18:35:00.000+07:00

the reason i have not been writing much here is that i cut off the adsl connection from my home. it increased it's price by almost 40%. crazy right? and there is hardly any possibility my salary is going to increase that much. so... bye bye connection.

the thing is, once i stopped having internet connection... i have more time for my friends and myself.

anyway, the other day i was also thinking to learn something new. had golf, pottery, sculpture, french/western cooking, yoga or painting in mind. any other interesting suggestions maybe?

another random thoughts

2006-03-23T12:08:00.000+07:00

too busy to call?

busy is just an excuse.

if you have time to eat, sleep and wee. then you'll have time for that phone call...

work...

2006-03-16T15:46:00.000+07:00

the past month has been filled with work.

yesterday, at a meeting, i met someone who is really straight-to-the-point. that person really knows how to deal business. but on the contrary, i heard she does not have much of a personal life. i'm not sure if it is true. however, it reminds me not to forget to play!

i am not sure when, i begin to ponders on things like... what will i be doing in five years time? what do i want to be by then? am still thinking of what i want, anyway.

it's merely a month. a lot of things happened. i wish i could accomplish more that i had. let's just hope the project that i have been working on goes well!

miss home

2006-02-13T00:01:00.000+07:00

in singapore changi airport right now. waiting for my flight, which leaves at 2.00 am. still got about 1 more hour to go. i actually wanted to come to the airport earlier to shop, but the shoe shop closes at midnight. wanted to have some ice cream, but full.

anyway, i am not in the mood for shopping today. nevertheless, bought some stuff. will have a busy week ahead. i have only been away for 2 days and is already missing home. ughhhh.....

anyway, they have really fast internet access here in the airport. the speed has improved so much since i last used it. impressive!

headache

2006-02-09T16:56:00.000+07:00

is it because of the cold air-conditioning in the office?!?

or something else...

new year resolutions

2006-02-06T22:34:00.000+07:00

lead a healty life
- eating more vege and lesser carbo
- exercise at least two times a week, 1 hour each time
- be in bed before 11 pm and out of bed before 7 am everyday. saturday night and sunday morning is an expection though.

get to know god more
- go church more regularly
- dedicate another day to god by joining a life group

spend more time with mum
- have dinner with mum one night every week. thursday is presummed.

be on time for work
- sleep early and wake up early so that i would come in on time.

* * *

two-o-o-five to-do-list:
1. lose weight (ten kg at least)
2. increase sales/profit for company
3. get a normal bf

*drumrolls...*

the review for the two-o-o-five to-do-list:
1. lost only 3 kg. how pathetic!
2. did increase some sales but definitely can do better.
3. did pretty badly on this one. it gotten worse in 2005, i guess. however, i believe great things will be coming my way pretty soon.

not too good overall. i guess i have to review the 2006 resolutions more frequently then!

* * *

it's 10.53 now. better be off to bed. i'll be having some photos taken tomorrow morning.

some random stuff

2006-02-02T10:40:00.000+07:00

i wonder when i am going to lose all that 15kg of excess weight. better start the diet again. you gotta focus, girl!

mum and i started to have commit to spending more time together. it ends up to dinner with mum on every thursday night. today's thursday! so, will be accompanying mum to aunt mei xian's (her best friend) place for some yummie prawn noodle.

i will be out of town from the 10-20 february. it has been quite long since i have been out of the country. hope to get some motivation and inspiration out there. also the bags, clothings and shoes that are calling my name. hahaha!

i have around 10 bottles of perfume but i tend to use the only two that i like. my favourite perfume is still the same as it was 5 years ago.

i hate it when i have oily hair. sometimes i wish my hair would cleanse itself while i am sleeping. imagine waking up with a great looking hair.

i like wearing skirts lately. feels more free and comfortable to move around.

guess that's all the randoms that i could think of for now....

stuck..

2006-02-01T15:49:00.000+07:00

at work. been trying to make a decent company profile but somehow i feel something's lacking.

i am in the position where i am not sure where i should be going. maybe i should get some advice from the elders. it's always good to have them around.

confused. parts of me does not coincide with each other. god, please let me see the things that you want me to see. let me hear the things that you want me to hear. let me do the things that you want me to do. i leave everything up to you.

wooo hooo...

2006-01-28T12:10:00.000+07:00

i had a great time yesterday and it makes me feel so good today.

today's chinese new year eve and we'll be having family dinner in michael's place at karawaci. will be going off to taman anggrek mal soon. tere and julie's already there. so happy. in such a holiday mood.

oo.... i feel so good.

last week's sermon notes, 8th jan

2006-01-14T00:59:00.000+07:00

we abuse godly things for personal gain.
we become too casual about the things of god.
we exclude those who are different from us.
we neglect to pray.

and this is an example of how a prayer could be (i fill out those with examples of my own version):

I. PRAISE THE LORD
1. you are such a great god
2. you are wise
3. thank you for loving me unconditionally even though i am sinful and is not worthy of your love.

II. REJOICE IN THE THINGS HE HAS DONE
1. thank you for letting me know you
2. thank you for changing me into the person you want me to be
3. thank you for letting me a good way to pray and rejoice in your name

III. ASK HIM TO MEET THE NEEDS OF OTHERS
1. please bless my mum as she has been feeling rather low lately. please let me have the strength to be more patience to her. please let me be a good daughter to her.
2. please bless my cousin, tresia, so that she will be wise in doing her decisions. please let me be a good cousin to her.
3. please bless all my family, friends and collegue with good health. for those family, friends and collegue that has not known you, i pray that the holy spirit work his way into their hearts so that they can open their hearts to you.

IV. YOUR OWN NEEDS LAST
1. please guide me in my relationship. let me know what i should know. let me see the things that i should see. let me listen to the things that i should listen. let me do the things that i should do. i believe that your choice will always be the best for me. i leave it all in your hands.
2. please let me be a good role model at work. let me be wise and do the things that pleases you. guide me and make me a better person at work.
3. please let me be a better christian. let me be more like what you want me to be. let me do the things that you want me to do. when i am weak, please strengthen my faith in you. please let me be a testimonial of your greatness to the people around me.

please forgive me if i have done the things that does not please you today. please forgive me if i was rude. please let me be the person you want me to be. thank you for listening to all my prayers. amin.

lara djonggrang

2006-01-06T15:44:00.000+07:00

went to lara djonggrang the second time. i was tired and did not wanna tag along, but tere insisted. being a good sport, i came along. from the time i stepped in, i did not like it. there were many weird statue, vase, paintings and objects.

i was really gay after the wine tei dinner but when i get out of lara djonggran i felt so angry. the drive home was horrible! ughhhh!

anyway, the good thing: we met angie and her family. with her hubby, sister, mum, dad and their friends. today, she just called asking for dinner. but i guess we have to reschedule because the rest of cousins are either not in the country or tired.

***

tini, my helper, has just been infected with chicken pocks. she seemed really worried. i think i should try to reassure her. poor girl.

wine tei part 2

2006-01-06T11:38:00.000+07:00

now goes the vertical photos.

wine tei

2006-01-06T02:16:00.000+07:00

had family dinner at wine tei to celebrate aunt cucu 's 55th birthday. food and atmosphere was nice. my second time there within two weeks.

the service was not exactly what we expected. waitresses were kind of slow and inexperience. but food was good. the yummy ones were sushi bomb, some fish salad that yuli had, rib eye steak, some japanese soup noodle. they have bad sashimi though.

anyway, the great thing is... this resto is a byo resto. which means we can bring our own wine. corkage charge is only rp. 50.000 per bottle. very much reasonable. i'll give wine tei an 7.5/10.

as you can see from the photos, we all had a lot of fun!

wine tei (behind la nan thai)
jl. dr. kusuma atmaja, sh no. 83
jakarta pusat 10310
p. 392 2668

narnia

2006-01-02T22:51:00.000+07:00

watched narnia with my friend just then. nomat night. i heard a lot of good comments about it before. it was good, but not as good as i expect it to be.

the ride to the theatre was not as smooth. cos the theatre was in the 3 in 1 area. in the end, gotta hire this 'joki' to get us there. paid the 'joki' rp. 5.000. but it was cool.

anyway, i was supposed to get some j.co donuts, but i forgot to take it off the car. arghhh... i guess i was too excited when saying goodbye. guess i will have to ask the courier in the office to pick it up tomorrow.

it was a great night.

king kong review

2005-12-30T00:34:00.000+07:00

watched king kong. touchy and great. too bad poor king kong gotta die.

the year's going to end soon. time flies so fast when you are enjoying it. another year and yet things have remained constant in some parts of my life. i feel like pouring it all out my blog but on there are some secrets that i want to keep for myself. maybe i should get some advice on how to do that.

anyway, played gokart last monday. i ended up with 4 bruises. 1 on my left leg, 1 on right leg, 1 on left rib and 1 on right rib. but it was all worth it. such an adrenaline drive. would want to do it again soon and hopefully accompanied by more gals.

i enjoyed myself tonight. anyway, time to sleep. good night everyone!

the gals at penang bistro

2005-12-27T11:50:00.000+07:00

tere, julie, me & yoke at penang bistro kebon sirih.

superbrand

2005-12-27T11:22:00.000+07:00

our group's superbrand ad on newspaper a few days ago. finally!

christmas day

2005-12-26T01:26:00.000+07:00

officially saying christmas is already over, since it's already a little over midnight.

anyway, my christmas day started way back yesterday midnight. was having coffee with a group of people from around 9-ish. oh la la thamrin. most of them whom i've just met yesterday. anyway, they were quite a fun group.

then went home to zZzzZz... woke up around 9-ish. dilly dally. watched tv. ate breakfast rather unwillingly (i read from an article that we should eat a little carbo in the morning in order to increase our metabolism). then i was off to church.

was late and missed the offerings (second time this month that i missed the offerings). felt so guilty about it. definitely must try to be on time this coming sunday. anyway, they had quite a funny but meaningful play at the church today. teaching us that god's love is a gift. and god's love is not selective.

lunch was at the blue elephant, setiabudi building. together with tere, cha-cha, julie & delon. they serve thai food. rather small serving but food was quite good and authentic. not too pricey, plus we got 15% off due to the anz spot program. anyway, i just googled it and found out that the blue elephant is a part of the jitlada group.

dinner was at home. a total of eleven people came for dinner at our place. rather squeezy but i think my mum loved it. limi cooked really delicious honey glazed pork spare ribs and roasted drumsticks. accompanied by dessert wine and beer.

then a few of us had coffee and a few rounds of big two games at the 24-hour starbucks. had a bad stomache on the car ride home. and since i reached home, i have been going to the toilet twice within the last hour. me and those stomaches.

anyway, i'm glad i had such enjoyable christmas. merry xmas to all of you!

it wouldn't have made any difference

2005-12-25T15:04:00.000+07:00

by alison krauss

do you remember the last time i said
if i ever thought of lying
i'd rather think of dying instead
and the last time you called me
to say we were through
how it took a million tears
just to prove they all were for you

but it wouldn't have made any difference,
if you loved me
how could you love me
when it wouldn't have made any difference,
if you loved me
you just did not love me

'cause i know of hundreds of times i could be
in the most unfaithful arms
that you always picture me
though i can't always show proof i was true
no one else could change my mind
or stop me coming home to you

but it wouldn't have made any difference,
if you loved me
how could you love me
when it wouldn't have made any difference,
if you loved me
you just did not love me

enough to believe me
enough not to leave me
enough not to look for
a reason to be unhappy with me
and make me regret ever wanting you

it wouldn't have made any difference
wouldn't have made any difference

if i was a southpark character...

2005-12-24T02:26:00.000+07:00

hihi... i think my southpark character looks so cute. looks a lot like christmas. you can go to planearium to create your own character. gotta thanks andy for the link.

as tears go by

2005-12-19T01:46:00.000+07:00

it is the evening of the day
i sit and watch the children play
smiling faces i can see, but not for me
i sit and watch as tears go by

my riches can't buy everything
i want to hear the children sing
all i ever hear is the sound of rain falling on the ground
i sit and watch as tears go by

it is the evening of the day
i sit and watch the children play
doin' things i used to do, they think they are new
i sit and watch as tears go by
mm mm mm...

it's a beautiful day

2005-12-19T01:30:00.000+07:00

this morning started out quite beautiful. sky was clear blue, with white patches of clouds. car was sparking clean (thanks to pak rahmat). and it was church day.

a different preacher for today. he is an italian sundanese (if i am not wrong)... but i do not know his name, since i arrived late. he described how christian life is a battleground, not a playground. and that we will never outgrow warfare (lust of flesh, lust of eyes and pride of life). we must learn how to fight it. so true, isn't it?

i have to confess that i am not living the christian life that i am supposed to be. but i hope and want to get better and closer to what god wants me to be.

not in the mood to reveal my feelings. but not to worry. i feel blessed, gratified, merry, gay or what-you-call-it.

ps. btw, how's everyone gonna celebrate their christmas & new year? i better start planning now...

listening to: as tears go by

alphabetical meaning of name

2005-12-15T02:21:00.000+07:00

a: you always want some action
b: you are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people
c: you definitely have a partier side in you
d: you have trouble trusting people
e: you are popular with all types of people
f: fake
g: you are very friendly and undestanding
h: you have very good personality and looks
i: love is somthing u believe in
j: everyone loves you
k: you like to try new things
l: you are always smiling and making others smile
m: success comes easily to you
n: you can be very "fun"
o: you love foreplay
p: you are very friendly and undestanding
q: you are a hypocrite
r: you are a social butterfly
s: people think you are sexy, especially your bf/gf
t: you have an attitude, a big one
u: you usally r hella tight
v: you are not judgemental
w: you are very broad minded
x: you never let people tell you what to do
y: you always make every experience great
z: you're uber cool

owww... so i am popular with types of people, is not judgemental and believe in love. how sweet!

addiction to dai dee

2005-12-15T02:02:00.000+07:00

not much time to blog, cos i've been busy playing dai dee. it's exciting, especially when you're playing with people you know.

love me accapella

2005-12-01T15:22:00.000+07:00

by janice wei

wish you'd bring me candies
when i feel lonely
dream that you were my husband-to-be
in 365 all i ask is one name it after me

wish you'd write my name
on your favorite palm tree
look in my eyes love is all you can see
night and day i dream that things are the way
before will you love me more

where when and why did you make me cry
loneliness has become another part of life
tears running strong and angels have gone
don't know how to carry on

baby i need you now
i need your arms to hold me tight tonight
please turn the lights down low
and feel my body glow whisper and flow

baby i need you now
i need your strength to hold me down tonight
the world is out of sight
cause you are all that i've been searching for
the way you make me feel adored

comments...

2005-12-01T09:26:00.000+07:00

is part of the reason why i created this blog. before i started blogging, i asked kev what good does a blog do? kev said blogging let you look back and read on the things that has been going on with your life during the past year. he also mentioned that people usually leave comments that will help us decide better in life. i agree with him that reflecting on life and people's comments do give us a lot of encouragement/solution/what-so-ever that you call it.

anyway, andy has been complaining that he could not comment on my blog. twice exactly. so i was thinking maybe it's time to switch from haloscan to the original blogger commenting. however, it would mean all my previous comments are gone from my blog. kind of sad. but sacrifices always have to be made if you want a change.

anyway, if you are one of the commentor. thanks for all your comments. i appreciate all the comments and encouragements. they're not totally gone... still down at haloscan. but not sure when i will have the knowledge and time to "carry them" over to my blog. maybe tomorrow. maybe never.

mood: lazy

funny facts

2005-11-29T00:10:00.000+07:00

found this at ika's. funny... so thought i would share it around.

did you know....??

if you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.
(hardly seems worth it.)

if you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(now that's more like it!)

the human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
(O.M.G.!)

a pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(in my next life, i want to be a pig.)

a cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death.
(creepy...)
(i'm still not over the pig.)

banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.
(do not try this at home. maybe at work.)

the male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. the female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.
("honey, i'm home. what the....?!")

the flea can jump 350 times its body length. it's like a human jumping the length of a football field.
(30 minutes... lucky pig. can you imagine??)

the catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(what could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(i still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)

butterflies taste with their feet..
(something i always wanted to know.)

the strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.
(hmmmmmm........)

right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.
(if you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

elephants are the only animals that cannot jump.
(ok, so that would be a good thing....................)

a cat's urine glows under a black light.
(i wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

an ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
(i know some people like that.)

starfish have no brains.
(i know some people like that too..)

polar bears are left-handed.
(if they switch, they'll live a lot longer.)

humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.
(what about that pig??)

"the wind blows...

2005-11-28T22:48:00.000+07:00

wherever it pleases. you hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. so it is with everyone born of the spirit." john 3:8, niv

i was wondering...

2005-11-26T00:40:00.000+07:00

do women keep in contact with their ex boyfriend?

is it okay to deal business with an ex?

the black & gold box

2005-11-21T23:20:00.000+07:00

god gave me two boxes. he told me to put all my sorrow in the black box and all joy in the gold box.

day by day, i did what he said. the gold become heavier but the black was as light as before.

with curiousity, i open the black and that there is a hole in the base which my sorrows had fallen out.

i asked god "i wonder where my sorrow could be?"

he smiled, "my child, they're all here with me."

i mused, "why did you give me the black box with hole?"

"my child, the gold is for you to count your blessings and the black is for you to let go."

* * *

kevin sent the message over sms. thanks for sharing, kev!

i am thankful for everything that the lord gave me. i feel blessed. thank you lord for letting me realise how fortunate i am. thank you for being there when i needed you. thank you for being there when i thought i did not need you. thank you for coming into my life. please strengthen my faith in you and let me grow to be a wiser and better person. thank you for everything.

bananas to digital one

2005-11-18T19:32:00.000+07:00

recently, kabelvision decided to upgrade to digital tv. and the apartment that i am stayin in is one of its first target to be upgraded.

the result according to me: quality of image is more sharp. improvement in sound quality is slightly noticeable. however, hassle to broswe through the channels (have to press up/down and then wait one second before the image shows up on tv). for those people who like to browse through their channels, chosing a program to watch tv has become so difficult that it is unenjoyable.

plus we paid for the family plan, which means two tv to be connected but they only gave one converter. the technician told me the price to install an extra converter would be 250rb. my cousin told me she had hers for 50rb. what's with all these bananas these days?

and they told me that they were supposed to give me free hbo and hbo signature. but all i got was "access denied". bananas digital one.

i've lodged a complain to their call center. they better give me a better answer!

update on the complain:
first, kablevision decided to give me the second converter for free. arrangement for installation will be scheduled. second, nothing can be done to minimise time for image to show when going up and down the channel. third, no free upgrades. justice was done overall... so i'm still quite satisfied. plus they responded fast to my complains.

note: i have tried to make some new resolutions by replacing unpleasant words with fruit names (idea by kennie). quite cool and it sounds much better.

recognizing a stroke

2005-11-09T15:51:00.000+07:00

a neurologist says that if he can get to a stroke victim within 3 hours he can totally reverse the effects of a stroke totally. he said the trick was getting a stroke recognized, diagnosed and getting to the patient within 3 hours which is tough.

sometimes symptoms of a stroke are difficult to identify. unfortunately, the lack of awareness spells disaster. the stroke victim may suffer brain damage when people nearby fail to recognize the symptoms of a stroke. now doctors say a bystander can recognize a stroke by asking three simple questions:

1. ask the individual to smile
2. ask the individual to raise both arms
3. ask the person to speak a simple sentence coherently) (It is sunny out today)

if he or she has trouble with any of these tasks, call 911 immediately and describe the symptoms to the dispatcher.

after discovering that a group of non-medical volunteers could identify facial weakness, arm weakness, and speech problems, researchers urged the general public to learn the three questions. widespread use of this test could result in prompt diagnosis and treatment of the stroke and prevent brain damage.

a cardiologist says if everyone who gets this e-mail sends it to 10 people, you can bet that at least one life will be saved.

be a friend and share this article with as many friends as possible, you could save a life.

***

i got this from an email, but i guess it is true. another thing that my mum said was, use a needle to poke the stroke victim's finger. but that may be for victims with heavy stroke. the lighter stroke are the ones that are difficult to identify. anyway, better be safe than sorry.

holiday fever

2005-11-05T14:44:00.000+07:00

the fifth day of my holiday and i am still hoping that it's only the second. tomorrow's sunday, which means i have to wake up early to go church tomorrow. which also means i only have one more day to sleep in till afternoon. arghhhh... i'm such a sleepyhead.

lots of events happened during the past weeks. a day's time can change people's decision so much. a lot of things can be achieved in a day. i guess i should not be wasting my time then. :)

i ate some plastics

2005-11-04T14:16:00.000+07:00

ughh... horrible isn't it?

i asked my adorable helper (she is sincerely nice, but a bit doo-doo in the head sometimes) to help me blend some watermelon juice. and it tasted rather unusual today... as in too many seeds particals.

a while ago, she showed me that the plastic handle which was used to mix the fruits inside the blender was broken. she continued to say that i could have drank all the broken plastic in. doh! felt kind of sick when she told me that. when asked how that happened, she told me that she took out the lid and used the plastic handle to poke the watermelon. double doh!

tini just smiled. i did not have the heart to scold her. i mean, i know she was not the smart type. but well she is nice, honest, hardworking and have a big warm smile. however, i did told her that she cannot do that anymore the next time.

and i begin to wonder what things they serve in restaurants sometimes.

as i lay me down

2005-11-03T03:36:00.000+07:00

a song that i used to like and is still on my favourite list. all the happy memories.

* * *

by sophie b. hawkins

it felt like springtime on this february morning
in the courtyard birds were singing your praise
i'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright
i carried them with me today, now

as i lay me down to sleep
this i pray
that you will hold me dear
though i'm far away
i'll whisper your name into the sky
and i will wake up happy

i wonder why i feel so high
though i am not above the sorrow
heavy hearted
till you call my name
and it sounds like church bells
or the whistle of a train
on a summer evening
i'll run to meet you
barefoot barely breathing

it's not too near for me
like a flower i need the rain
though it's not clear to me
every season has its change
and i will see you
when the sun comes out again

emotions

2005-10-23T04:06:00.000+07:00

mixed feelings.

i regret some things that i said.

sore butt

2005-10-17T19:21:00.000+07:00

i was trying to get to my client's place on time, but i did not know their exact location. was looking frantically in their super huge car park. tried to rush through a flight of stairs and fell. landed on my butt.

geez... it was so painful that i stayed stunned for two seconds. the lucky part is, it was an exit staircase and no one was around. anyway, that exit staircase was the wrong way.

i had a look of my butt in front of the mirror just then. can see some blue blacks. i already applied some ointment on it, but i still think it'll be worse off tomorrow. hope it won't get too bad.

unusual weekend

2005-10-16T02:38:00.000+07:00

weekend was lonely without tere, hairy & kennie in jakarta. but well, my honey stayed over at my place. my bed exactly. yayyy!

today was spent mostly at home. went to giant for dinner. walked a bit after meal cos we were so full. headed home before it was even 9 pm. then it was all spent with honey trying to get blackheads out of my face and chit-chating in front of the tv. later on, limi came over from the next apartment to join us. limi shared her views on marriage and other interesting issues.

it was something different from the normal weekend. but i guess it quite nice, although i would prefer the normal one. i learnt a lot through the conversations.

plus, i took friday and saturday off. it was so nice to just stay at home and relax. although i still have to handle some issues via the phone.

i also start to wonder why i would sometimes be interested in someone who is so different from what i want?

012345 km

2005-10-11T00:45:00.000+07:00

was turning on my car engine when i discovered the odometer reading to be 012345 km. i found the discovery to be rather interesting and blurted out to tere and yuli about it (since they were in the car).

yuli wanted me to take a photo of it. first, i thought she must have found in interesting as well. then she continued to relate that it would bring good luck if i was to take photos of consecutive number (000123, 001234) and ending numbers (eg. 9999, 99999) of the odometer reading. i have never heard of such beliefs but there is no harm in taking photos right?

since the apartment had underground car park, the first photo turned out dark (top-left). later, i stopped by the roadside to take better shots with natural sunlight. not too shabby considering it is taken by a handphone camera.

xiao nan guo

2005-10-11T00:12:00.000+07:00

accompanied my mum, mami, papa & another two elders for dinner about a week or two ago. xiao nan guo at mangga besar. we all thought it was the same x iao nan guo as the one in shanghai, but apparently not. the resto looked rather deserted when we first came. after a while, i found out that mami & papi knew the guy who is in charge of the resto. and that was why we were there.

anyway, the head waitress from china introduced us a few dishes. their most popular dish was the soup that has been "grilled" with charcoal for more than 3 days with clay pot. we ordered two different soup. one was yummy, the other just normal.

then they had a lot of other interesting dishes on the menu. the food there was especially oily and tasted so much like china food. quite authentic, i would say.

there were so many dishes that i had never taste before. what i mean was: there were normal food & vegetables but cooked in a different way. those that i like included pork and soy bean soup in claypot, fried tofu with mushroom with brown colored sauce, another oily soup that has almost everything in it and the fish that was dipped in i am not sure what oil (it was so fresh). the catch is, you can't eat much since it is so freaking oily. but i would say it was definitely worth a try. i would want to go back again sometime.

by the time we left (around 9.30), the resto was starting to be busy. the resto is located at the red light district area and opens from evening till 2-3 am in the morning.

xiao nan guo
jl. mangga besar 1, no. 22
jakarta, indonesia
t. 600 6483

ceng's surprise party

2005-10-11T00:00:00.000+07:00

ceng's surprise birthday party on early morning 9 september 2005. i gotta drive to pantai mutiara around 11 plus at night. kind of tiring, but definitely worth it for such an amiable cousin like him. top-left is of him and his younger bro, harry. top-right is of him and rudy.

happy belated birthday to you, my dear cousin.

lara djonggrang

2005-10-10T23:10:00.000+07:00

this new opened bar and resto is owned by the tugu (same group as dapur babah). the initial plan was to celebrate yuli's birthday with her at dapur babah. but when we reached there, they were already closing. the receptionist forwarded us to the new place, lara djonggrang.

the exterior was beautifully decorated with these lanterns. however, the catch is: we were the only ones there (but that was about a month ago). the place is quite nice, but not to my liking. i find it rather eerie.

electronic kitchen appliances

2005-10-10T01:40:00.000+07:00

had been feeling rather unbalanced these days. the same usual needy feeling when the time of month has came.

it started out from office. things had been rough there and i took it rather seriously. in the end, i freaked my boss by being whiny. after he told me off, i came to realize that there is no benefit in me being so emotional. i came to realize that my main purpose in life is not about my career. why get worried about it right? i think i am spending too much time, energy and brain power in the office. i should reduce that because it rather coincides with my main purpose in life.

i was at the supermarket the other day and then i have this sudden rush of wanting to reward myself (cos i work hard). got myself a sandwich maker. i loved melted cheese in between bread. ever since the purchase, i think i have eaten at least 4 sandwiches.

and yesterday, i had the urge to buy a blender. went to electronic city and got it just then. since then, i had tried making watermelon juice and pineapple juice. slurp...

i guess it is just another way for me to entertain myself and diversify my attention. i certainly enjoy my new toys.

officially missing you

2005-10-09T15:03:00.000+07:00

by tamia

all i hear is raindrops
falling on the rooftop
oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
cause this pain i feel
it won't go away
and today i'm officially missing you
i thought that from this heartache
i could escape
but i fronted long enough to know
there ain't no way
and today
i'm officially missing you

oh can't nobody do it like you
said every little thing you do
hey baby say it stays on my mind
and i, i'm officially

all i do is lay around
two ears full tears
from looking at your face on the wall
just a week ago you were my baby
now i don't even know you at all
i don't know you at all
well i wish that you would call me right now
so that i could get through to you somehow
but i guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
that i'm officially missing you

well i thought i could just get over you baby
but i see that's something i just can't do
from the way you would hold me
to the sweet things you told me
i just can't find a way
to let go of you

it's official
you know that i'm missing you
yeah yes
all i hear is raindrops
and i'm officially missing you

characteristics by star sign

2005-10-07T17:11:00.000+07:00

read from andy's blog that female leos likes to remember the sweet memories, but not necessarily the old feelings. absolutely agree with it. i still remember those beautiful with my ex. although him and i used to have some bad times as well, but it is natural for human to remember the good instead of the bad (sympthoms of being in denial maybe?). haha!

anyway here's the characteristics for female leos.

l.e.o
stands out in a crowd. likes clothings that shows her confident, no cheap clothings for her. very selective about friends. open minded, but won't let people too close to her. likes praises, but not too many. she smiles to everyone, but inside, she believes she's born a leader.

likes to control. elegant, strong charisma. likes to remember sweet memories. most likely will have a photo album of her ex-es, and their love letters, but not necessarily the old feelings. has a lot of male friends. hates poor life, love cannot pay for all the expenditures. like sports. needs a lot of money to date her. generous, likes to give lavish gift. if you dont have much money, try to be creative.

some true. some not. but mostly true.

to check out yours, click here.

reasons of new fuel prices

2005-10-02T23:59:00.000+07:00

some of the reasons why the government made the decision to rise fuel prices:

one.
the fuel prices in indo has been much lower the market price for years. government has been subsadising fuel for years. "as indonesia has become a net oil importer amid rising fuel consumption, declining oil production and soaring global oil prices recently hit us$70 a barrel, the fuel subsidies would have ballooned well over Rp 110 trillion to keep the fuel prices at their current levels." - the jakarta post

two.
"susilo personally did not want to increase fuel prices, but the tough decision was a must if the nation was to avert bankruptcy, from spending too much on the fuel subsidy." - the jakarta post

measures taken to help the poor cope with new fuel prices:

one.
"the government also issued five incentive packages, which include discounts for certain products, trade reform regulations, public transportation reform, an increase in the minimum price of unhusked rice paid to farmers and a direct subsidy for the poor." - the jakarta post

two.
"in march, the government made available Rp 17 trillion directed at easing the plight of the poor, and supposedly used that money to improve education, health services and rural infrastructure. with this new package of aid, the total bill for the year in extra benefits for the poor will reach rp 30 trillion." - the ja

three.
"after completing the poverty registration, the government has promised to give each of the 15 million low-income families monthly payments of rp 100,000 (approximately US$10) beginning next month to help ease their economic burden from the price rises." - the jakarta post

new fuel prices up by 126%

2005-10-01T02:59:00.000+07:00

JAKARTA (JP): The government announced early on Saturday that the prices of fuels for domestic consumption raised in an average of 126 percent.

Coordinating Minister for the Economy Aburizal Bakrie announced at the Ministry of Finance compound that premium gasoline was raised from Rp 2,400 to Rp 4,500 (23 U.S. cents to 44 U.S. cents) per liter while diesel fuel is raised from Rp 2,100 to Rp 4,300 per liter.

Kerosene, mostly used by poor families, was raised almost two-fold from Rp 700 to Rp 2,000.

The announcement, initially planned at 10 p.m. on Friday, was made after a prolonged Cabinet meeting at the Presidential Palace. (nvn)

source: The Jakarta Post

***

also, i received an sms about protests due to new fuel prices. it reads like this.

INFO: bsk siang dr jam 9-14 kalo bs jgn kluar2 ke kota, katanya org turun demo ke gedung DPR, jam 12 siang smua org yg kerja hrs berenti 'n ikut demo. takutnya kerusuhan.. nama gerakannya PEOPLE'S POWER! kasih tau ke semua temen y'n family... thx

not sure if the source is true. but i guess there's nothing wrong with taking precaution.

the worst thing is, the new fuel price will hit the poor most. and of course, there'll also be an increase for minimum wage and so on. business is going to be more tough than ever. even i feel that the 87.5% increase for premium price is bitter. can you imagine that a rp. 50.000 can only buy 11 litre of premium? just yesterday, rp 50000 can fill almost half my car tank.

but again, there are things that must be considered as well. as what SBY said "i realize that this is not a popular policy, a bitter pill that we have to swallow, but we have to do it to save the nation's budget and the future of the country,"

let's just pray that the government is making the right decision and trust their fore sight.

victory!

2005-10-01T02:19:00.000+07:00

update on the citibank credit card: it is finally resolved after much shouting and finally get to talk with the supervisor. the girl who picked up my phone was sure to be in some bad luck. it was frustrating to be let me waiting on silent tone for 20 minutes (it was all silent while she put me on hold) while she go get the omar who talked to me on 26 september 2005. when she was back in line, she told me that omar could not contact me this evening and will contact me tomorrow. i told her that i want an answer from omar today and that i have waited for 4 days. why should i wait some more? so in the end, i asked to speak to her supervisor. and warned her that she better NOT put me on hold for another 20 minutes. after being put on the same silent hold for 5 minutes, she told me that her supervisor (tia) is not around as it was friday night. i told her that i did not care, as it was citibank's responsibility to give me an answer by today! i was firm and told her that i will not put down the phone until the matter is settled. i also told her that i was not going to wait, even for 30 minutes.

in the end, her supervisor called my mobile. all she said was sorry and more sorry. i demanded that my annual fee credited back, plus the interest and late fee. rp. 203.725 exactly. i am dissapointed with their service.

i persisted and made all those efforts because i felt that it was not my fault. i should not be sacrificed if citibank hired some irresponssible marketing that did not explain anything to me. plus how could the citi phone officer not explain anything about my card when i activated it? these are just some of the flaws that big companies have. they throw you here and there. there is no follow up on complains. yikes yikes!

but again, i felt happy that someone actually listened in the end and get everything done! plus, i learnt something really important. to increase my bargaining power.

lesson learnt: it is useless to bargain with someone who has no power to make decisions.

plastic trouble!

2005-09-27T00:50:00.000+07:00

back in march, i got phonecall from satelindo reference offering me credit card. i was reluctant at first. i had tons of reasons to be. i had two cards back then, was busy with work and was just too lazy to go through all the application thing. however, they told me that they were going to offer me free annual fee and all i had to do was to fax them my id. and since they were from citibank, i trusted them.

so i did. my card arrived about 10-15 days later. i was surprised that they were so fast, but delighted. when i called to activate the card, the female phone officer told me that i would get a refund of rp 200.000 if i spend over some limit. then after knowing that it was a gold card, she said i will get rp. 500.000 if i were to spend more than rp 1.200.000 during the first 45 days. can you imagine how excited i was? free annual fee and then refund rp. 500.000? i could never miss that out!

after a few days and spending rp. 1.200.000, the not so smart female officer rang me up to inform me that she had the wrong information. this was because i was in the "free annual fee" program and could not get the refund. i was a little frustrated but i guess it's okay. i still get free annual fee and people do make mistake sometimes, even me.

the next one month was fine, till i got another phonecall from citibank asking me if i did any bidding on ebay. "no" i replied. as far as i know, indonesian credit card holders are not allowed to purchase on amazon. not sure about ebay though. the nice officer asked me to cut my card and that she will send me another one asap.

later, i got my new card. i thought that citibank was great. they even call up their customers for overseas transactions these days!

one day by chance, i called up to check on my expenses. the male officer told me that i was charged rp. 300.000 for annual fee. i was shocked. so i told him what happened. before the conversation ends, i was already frustrated because i had to explain to him everything from the start. then suddenly, the phone line was cut off. i was too pissed to even call the citibank phone banking to start telling them the story from the start. a few days later, when i felt a little better. i called up to tell them about the story, this time the female office told me that i was not charged with the annual fee. how pleasant is that!

then when i got my bill, there is a rp. 300.000 charge for my annual fee. transfered from my previous credit card! i called up to explain to them. they asked me to wait while they go check on it. i waited and waited... till the line went dead. i called back and the same thing happened again! by that time, i was getting frustrated at them. being angry, i decided to call it up and try another day. such irresponsibility for such a professional company!

a few days later, i called them up. said i wanted to close my account and did not want to pay for the rp. 300.000. male officer said he could only process to closing account when the bill is paid up. he also explained that i will only get the free annual fee if i sign up for satelindo billing. how great?!? and no one told me anything like that before?!? anyway, i went to pay up my bill and then call them up again a few days later. after talking for a while, i was transferred to closing account department. i think the girl was called micha or something. she offered to give me free annual fee for my gold card if i wanted to pay my phone bill via my visa. she was being really nice and the clear card "buy 1 get 1" is quite irresistable. so i said okay to it. plus, i got the girl's name as well.

within a few days, my clear card arrived. it was cool. cute... with many accessories. i was happy. so i thought everything's going to be cool now and deleted the girl phone officer name from my handphone.

when the bills arrived, i was unhappy! cos i had to pay for rp. 300.000 (the previous one on the gold) and also rp. 166.667 (the current mini). and their due date is only 15 days after they issue their bills. hsbc and anz gives 20, at least!

with only 15 days to pay up and the inefficient indo mail forwarder, it is of no wonder if people are being charged of finance charges every month. i also found out that they charge rp. 35.000 for late fee plus interest! they also charge interest on your annual fee if you refused to pay them.

anyway, today i learn to be smart. i jot down the phone officer's name, the time and the date. he said he is going to find out about my situation by 4 working days. i'm waiting. 30 september 2005 at 7 pm, i told him. if you happen to be the officer and is reading this, better remember to call me!

i hate empty promises. i hate being thrown here and there. i hate companies not owning up to their own mistakes.

some credit card providers have much better service. anz is one good explain. anz spots are everywhere and they bill me correctly. hsbc still has errors sometimes, but they will reverse it if you found out.

burden of supervisor

2005-09-17T12:28:00.000+07:00

the most sickening thing about being a supervisor is that: whatever mistakes the people under you make, you have to take responsibility of it.

all these while i have been trying to solve those problems... and now, it is getting so annoying that i cannot stand anymore. i wanted to be one of those nice supervisor who do not scream at their employees, but i guess it doesn't work for sometimes.

anyway, that's what a supervisor should be doing. solving problems. patience...

confession of a couch potato

2005-09-14T01:13:00.000+07:00

yes... i have not been to gym for ages. a month and the half or so!

it was triggered by the stupid reno that they are making in the girl's bathroom! the stupid fitness center actually switched the girls and guy's bathroom around, cos they were renovating the girl's bathroom. as you all know, that place is rather packed! can u imagine how sick it feels when you have to wait in line to bath or blow-dry your hair?

anyway, enuff of all the excuses. i'm going back to gym tomorrow. dun want my hard-earned money to go down the drain. plus, i need to get my healthy life back!

will be going to the dentist tomorrow afternoon. i have been afraid to go back to him since he made me suffer the last time. but he's a nice overall. anyway, gum's still swollen so i better let him look at it.

mr. j contacted me a few days ago. it just did not feel right. i think i made the right choice by ignoring him. although some part of me can't help feeling bad. i hate it when i think too much.

ouch!

2005-09-12T01:18:00.000+07:00

in the last couple of days, miss scared-of-pain has gotten herself:

• five reddish, itchy and huge bug bites (not sure where it comes from)
• two ulcers on her mouth (one gigantic one measuring 1 cm in diameter and another small one beside it)
• half swollen lips due to the huge ulcer
• lips that are so dry that even application of lip gloss every night does not help much
• a cramp attack on her feet while sleeping (her poor feet was walking too much at fgd with heels)
• swollen gums at the back of her jaw, behind the wisdom tooth

anyway, missy is so glad that the worst is over. although it was not perfect, but missy was happy for the weekend!

went to ies yaf for the first time. last saturday from 3-5pm. pastor chris from malaysia who kept missy and her companions laughing. the people were friendly. good sermon. sunday starts with waking up late. then owen's baby shower. later off to darmaga with kennie & tere. then to hairy's for some foot message and card games. dinner was at gading boulevard. missy liked to eat the bones of her fried chicken presto. yum... followed another round of card games, accompanied with a cup of cold chocolate.

exhausted. but yet fun.

traces of memories

2005-09-09T01:20:00.000+07:00

i miss my uni life. miss jean. miss huong. miss playing dai de till 6 am in the morning. miss chicken chips. miss watching tv with jean. miss skipping class to go shopping. miss midnight supermarketing at coles. miss baking cake at night. miss cooking together. miss having picnic in botanical gardens. miss afternoon naps. although it was not perfect, but it was great.

probably having my mid-life crisis... as i begin to ponder what on earth am i here for? things like: how happiness is measured? will we ever feel happy, if we were never down? i wonder.

a few days before, julie and i were discussing about how selfish we were. we wanted more time for ourselves while our creator has so many matters to attend. have you ever wondered how creative our god is? there are so many humans on earth and we all are different. we look different, sound different, different DNAs, characters and so much more... have you ever thought of that? even the process of life before birth is such a journey. god, you are indeed great.

listening to: tamia - officially missing you

tick tock... tick tock...

2005-09-07T02:02:00.000+07:00

so little time. so much to do.

i wanna have more time for sleeping (those of you who know me well should know how much i spend my time for sleep). need more time for shopping, gym, dining, pampering myself, taking long baths, growth... etc.

seems like after i started working, i barely have the energy to do things that i wanna do. i feel like everyone else has more enegry than me! is it just me? if i push myself too much without rest, i'll get sick. but if i do not, i do not have time for the things that i enjoy.

the other day, i was telling julie how i wish that there'll be 30 hours a day. 8 for work, the other 22 for myself. or maybe we have two days off per week (since i work halfday on saturday). as in like, additional sunday instead of the current one.

waking up at noon has become a great luxury these days.

single?

2005-08-31T00:46:00.000+07:00

i like being single.

but there is some part of me that fear of being single... for the rest of my life.

charlie and the chocolate factory

2005-08-21T01:43:00.000+07:00

i used to read a few roald dahl books when i was little. and of course, charlie and the chocolate factory is one of my favourite. every chocolate lover would.

just watched the movie. absolute creativity. everything from set-up, animation, customes, make-up, the actors. detailed. thumbs up for johnny depp's acting.

this film is filled with so much ideas, that you would want to create something to let out all the creativity after you watch it. a trigger for the imagination indeed. i would describe the experience as a roller coster ride.

womenhood cycle...

2005-08-20T02:27:00.000+07:00

kind of exhaused tonight, so i started my sleep at around 8 pm. then was awaken by the stuffiness in my room around 12 midnite.

maybe i was awaken due to my routine monthly womanhood cycle. will there be a rise in body heat during these times? anyway, all male homosepians should be lucky that they do not have to go through the monthly cycle. all those excess expenses, worrying about stains, mood changes, oily hair & skin, cramps... but it's still great being a girl. plus, it's a great excuse for everything.

anyhow, got hungry after that. craved so much for fried rice... but too lazy to drive and no one's available & willing to accompany me have fried rice at this hour. ended up having an apple, fortnum & mason camomile tea and some biscuits. not too bad either. warms the tummy too.

i am thankful...

2005-08-15T21:15:00.000+07:00

for all the things that has happened and is happening in my life. i would consider myself to be one of the lucky ones. showered with so much wonders.

some of the things that i am thankful of... (in random)

• thumbs-up mum who hardly complains
• fantastic cousins
• awesome friends
• wonderful big family with lots and lots of members
• satisfying career
• have the chance to know god
• being optimistic
• able to taste good food
• healthy and fit
• born in a family that enjoys travelling a lot
• never have to suffer or work too hard
• still have the time to shop
• tini for tidying and cleaning up my room
• get almost everything i want
• sleeping well almost everynight
• supportive family and friends
• a couple of jokers in my life that never fails to crack me up

what more could i ask for? life's beautiful!

the uncertainty

2005-08-10T00:51:00.000+07:00

been trying to look for a cd by snow rose - excel. great old songs. beautiful vocals. too bad, i still haven't found what i'm looking for.

work has been busy, that the only thing i want to do after work is to enjoy myself. i do not enjoy exhibitions. i hate the pressure. i wish i had a more simple life. btw, i figured out that being demanding is one of the keys of being a successful leader.

got a great news, three of my cousins will be getting married next year. so happy for them.

sometimes, i am not sure which directions i am drifting to. nearer or further to god? there is this 40 days community program in church... i'm in for it. will try out this life group in grogol area soon.

mum's been sick. not good. hope the business meetings goes well tomorrow. also wish that i won't be lazy for gym tomorrow.

and of course. i certainly hope that i will have more patience. especially when i am working. dear father in heaven, please let me speak the words that you want me to speak, do the things that you want me to do and let me hear & see the things that you want me to hear & see. mould me to be the way that you want me to be.

also i think i was rather impatient to kevin this afternoon. kevin kept bugging me with something while i was busy at work. poor kevin, he ended up getting some sarcastism from me. anyway, i think i was rather harsh on kevin. i'm sorry, kevin. pray for me so that i'll be more patience okay?

got a gastric attack cos i tried to get everything done in time. but i guess all the jokes from my cousins and friends fixed that. i think it should be fine now.

gotta go read my daily dose of commitment now.

cute photos of chim family

2005-08-07T21:08:00.000+07:00

aunty vince in geisha costume.

aunty vince with tia and chris. what custome are tia and chris wearing? chris as banana man maybe?

dessert psychological test

2005-08-07T03:51:00.000+07:00

got this from the bulletin board on my friendster.

if all of the desserts listed below were sitting in front of you, which would you choose? pick your dessert, then look to see what psychiatrists think about you! sorry, you can only pick one.

· angel food cake
· brownie
· lemon meringue
· vanilla cake with chocolate icing
· strawberry short cake
· chocolate on chocolate
· ice cream
· carrot cake

no. you can't change your mind once you scroll down! so think carefully what your choice will be. now that you've made your choice, this is what research says about you!

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angel food cake
sweet, loving, cuddly. you love all warm and fuzzy items. a little nutty at times. sometimes you need an ice cream cone at the end of the day. others perceive you as being childlike and immature at times.

brownies
you are adventurous, love new ideas, are a champion of under dogs and a slayer of dragons. when tempers flare up, you whip out your saber. you are always the oddball with a unique sense of humour and direction. you tend to be very loyal.

lemon meringue
smooth, sexy & articulate with your hands, you are an excellent after-dinner speaker and a good teacher. but don't try to walk and chew gum at the same time. a bit of a diva at times, but you have many friends.

vanilla cake with chocolate icing
fun-loving, sassy, humorous. not very grounded in life; very indecisive and lack motivation. everyone
enjoys being around you, but you are a practical joker. others should be cautious in making you mad. however, you are a friend for life.

strawberry short cake
romantic, warm, loving. you care about other people and can be counted on in a pinch. you tend to melt. you can be overly emotional at times.

chocolate on chocolate
sexy; always ready to give and receive. very creative, adventurous, ambitious, and passionate. you can appear to have a cold exterior or but are warm on the inside. not afraid to take chances. will not settle for anything average in life. love to laugh.

ice cream
you like sports, whether it be baseball, football,basketball, or soccer. if you could, you would like to participate, but you enjoy watching sports. you don't like to give up the remote control. you tend to be self-centred and high maintenance.

carrot cake
you are a very fun loving person, who likes to laugh. you are fun to be with. people like to hang
out with you. you are a very warm hearted person and a little quirky at times. you have many loyal friends.

kembang goela...

2005-08-06T01:08:00.000+07:00

is the place where one can taste traditional indonesian home-cooking. it is beautifully furnished in a colonial style, with some old indonesian and dutch tunes softly playing in the background. its antique collection is also a feast for the eyes; an old clock, tiffin carriers and a gramophone from a bygone era.

btw, this resto was introduced by my neighbour (who has a handsome baby boy named john). oh well, they kept telling my mum to have dinner there. so my mum bugged me. so i had to take her there for dinner about a two weeks ago. my neighbours surely have good taste.

ambiance: impressive, especially when the resto is just 3 minutes drive from my place. i prefer the lounge area when compared to dining as it is more warm. dining area has its ceilings a little too high. however, it would still give it a thumbs up. ****
service: waiter has good knowledge of the menu. waiter/waitresses wore nice uniform which reminds us of the dutch mix indonesian style. most of them are quiet polite, however they are still inexperienced in serving. ***½
presentation: impressive cutlery and food presentation. something unordinary. ****
taste: so-so. ***
price: ranging from 130.000 - 250.000 pp, depending on what you order.

kembang goela
plaza sentral parking lot
jl. jendral sudirman kav 47-48
t.520 5651

malya's view

2005-08-06T00:55:00.000+07:00

malya's view, taken from the hotel room's balcony. edgeless pool allow us to enjoy the view and breeze while swimming. calm, peaceful, nice view & nature's breeze... simply unresistable for the stressful metropolitans!

julie & aya

2005-08-06T00:35:00.000+07:00

lobster face

2005-08-06T00:30:00.000+07:00

circa again

2005-08-06T00:29:00.000+07:00

circa ambiance

2005-08-04T00:13:00.000+07:00

posing @ circa

2005-08-03T23:59:00.000+07:00

sheraton vs malya

2005-08-03T23:40:00.000+07:00

malya
room: has not been renovated for years. had small twin bed joined together. bedsheet is not super clean and shiny. pillows are saggy. dim lighting (i hate it). old 21" tv. toilet was small and again badly lighted. toilet bowl in my room had some intense smell. my room had a balcony and the view is just awesome.**½

surroundings: i love malya's surrounding. edgeless swimming pool with a great mountain view. since it only had 50 rooms, which means far more privacy for people. nice spa & message. quiet and windy. it's like being able to enjoy the nature without getting mosquito bites or sleeping in the wild.***½

lobby: was renovated a few years ago but the design has gone a little out of date. however, it still has a distinct style. windy place where you can enjoy privacy and view. awesome!****
distance from lobby to room: still acceptable, since they had lifts.

service: great personal service from some staffs. ***½

sheraton bandung hotel & towers
room: newly renovated. huge twin bed (too bad i had king sized one). brightly lit. new carpet. warm interior. clean. 29" flat tv. huge and hygienic toilet. draining system inside the bath slow. 3 complimentay bananas. however, i found a dried dead lizard in their fruit tray. all i could see was some local housing and mosque which is less than 100m away. ***½

surroundings: nothing much here. they had their own garden, but it wasn't natural. since they had 150 rooms, it would mean far less privacy. lots of kids. swimming pool is too 'public', with kids running around. **½

lobby: not yet renovated. i do not like the design. looks dirty and dusty. bad lighting. **
distance from lobby to room: too tiring for a spoilt princess. **

service: quick but not too personal. **½

opsstt...

2005-08-03T23:37:00.000+07:00

my snappy fingers accidentally deleted the previous entry. me and my flying fingers... they help me out a lot at times, but cause me trouble some other times.

anyway, a brief summary of the deleted entry:

• i was in bandung for holiday from 30 july - 2 august
• spend the first night in sheraton cos malya was fully booked
• i took a long nap in the late afternoon/evening (2-3 hours i suppose)
• could not sleep at night while i was in malya
• accessed malya's wifi through my mobile and posted an entry