love is...

received a comment from ivan about my relationship blog, which made me did some impact thinking.

"love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not selfseeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

many of you, may find the above 'love's check list' familiar, just like i did. however, i never really thought about the real meaning of it, till last night.

it seems to me that, after my previous relationship, i was too exhausted, too drained, to love again.

being with my ex was great. and i still think he is a wonderful guy. he made me see things from a different perspective. however, did not share the same long term goals.

after being in the giving situation for sometime, i was drained. then i turned to be selfish, demanding, tempermental, impatient and proud. i guess i just did not any more love inside me. plus, i thought i was almost self sufficient. but i was wrong.

if i did hurt anyone's feelings during the past few months, i would like to apologize. if you are experiencing the same thing as i did, maybe you would like to rethink again. because with love; you will not get, until you really give.

music: carnival - the cardigans
mood: delighted and soothing
learning: to love again, wholeheartedly