the grass on the other side is always greener

in the past few months, i have been attracted to males who are attached. they seem to be more aggresive and friendly than the single males. plus, they seem to be more open about their feelings. maybe that's why they seem to catch more attention.

why is it that girls are likely to be attracted to males who are attached? the moon on the other side is more round? more challenging maybe? does these males produce a certain type of scent that attract girls to them? or is it that we have been fighting for our toy, so that the habit is still buried within us? or is it just because it's chemistry?

whatever it is, i would certainly hide my feelings towards them. i would chose not to see them often because i do not want to let my feelings grow for the wrong person. it would be stupid to confuse myself. it is not my style to snatch the posession of others. i know how bad it would feel like. i would not want it to happen to me. as much as i would like to, i wouldn't. i just couldn't.

but somewhere inside my heart, it hurts.