25 soon!

have not been to gym for weeks. MUST go tomorrow, as in later this evening. geez, i feel so ugly right now. was having a hard time deciding what to wear just then, cos everything looked yikes!

will be 25 in another 40 days. arghhhhhhh!!! time's running out. wrinkles may start appearing soon. someone recommend me anti-aging or anti-eyebag cream maybe? cos i am only using moisturizer right now. and that's only when i remember to.

hmnn... where should i celebrate my birthday? and most importantly, the question for me to ponder about before this birthday: my purpose in life?

god? family? career? friends? i guess that basically summerizes everything eh? of cos, things like shoes, bags and dining cannot be left out.

i yearn to be a dedicated christian, fillial daughter, loving wife, caring mother and successful kitchen godess. something like nigella lawson kind of kitchen goddess yea (not the kind who stays at home with messy hair and oily face). but that's more like a dream for now. something near that would be satisfying too.

music: sakura no kino shita de - tsuji ayono