the to-do-list this year

time to review the 2005 to-do-list.

1: lose weight... still haven't lost any weight from last month. oh no!
2: increase profit... i don't even think my current strategy's working. someone, help meeeee....
3: normal bf... i don't think now's good time to think about this.

man... i gotta do something. will first focus on losing weight and having a healtier lifestyle. it'll be gym 3 times a week, more fresh juices and reduce junk food. but of course, i can still dine out. hehe...

to create a lasting change, i must raise my standards, believe that i can meet the standards and change my strategy if needed. it would be better that i learn from someone who has succeded in the past. cos he/she would probably know the best strategy... of course i can modify these to suit myself. i would also need to review myself often, so i would know if the strategy works or not. they are all from AR's awaken the giant within.

focus... focus... we need to focus here, evi.

stupid & beautiful

a man said to his wife one day, "i don't know how you can be so stupid and so beautiful all at the same time."

the wife responded, "allow me to explain. god made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me. god made me stupid so i would be attracted to you!"

owww.... she's not that stupid afterall! :)

weird dream

today was quite great. but i felt needy.

had been dreaming about a particular someone lately. and it kept coming back, especially when i'm having naps. had it again when i was having my nap this noon! weird?!?

telling the truth

"darlenk!"
"hi babe!"
"miss me?"
"yea, i miss you yesterday, but not today."
"but you didn't try to contact me yesterday."
"i tried to sms you. but there's something wrong with my phone. did you miss me?"
"you could have at least called. i miss you everyday."
"haha... what a lie."
"see. when i tell you the truth, you do not believe."
"hehe... i miss you too, babe."

how i wish to have the courage to tell the truth.

music: in da club - 50 cents

freebies

aha!!! got this handphone pouch from tere today at lunch. she was so anxious to show it to me that she called me up. "vi, where are you? coming here for lunch?"

this one is the second revised design. the first was pink satin with black laces (do we call it lace?). however, it was too squarish and therefore i asked for some revision in the design. i certainly like this one more.

took quite long to adjust the color of this particular photo. i usually like my photos contrast, but this particular one cannot be adjusted too contrast. too contrast and it will "lose" its soft lacey feeling. that's my perception anyway. however, it is certainly not easy to adjust the photo to exactly the same colour as what it looks physically. plus, different monitor produces different colour and has different settings. why am i writing about all this colour adjustment thingy anyway?

juli came up with the idea of selling these pouches, but after some calculation, we figured the cost itself is too expensive. lace alone (60 cm width) costs around a few hundred thousand per metre. unless we use lower quality laces.

also received "dining indulgences by amex" from indra. "anybody can make you enjoy the first bite of a dish, but only a real chef can make you enjoy the last. - francois minot" was written on the back of the book. not sure if i would actually use it as guidance, but i like to flip through it anyway.

oh... the pleasure of having cousins. full of envy? oh well, i love them more than you can imagine.

sore throat syndrome

had the 3m ketoprak (indonesian salad with peanut sauce?) yesterday. tere and i have been dreaming about it. finally, we got to eat it again yesterday. yum... it tasted better cos we asked the man to make it more spicy. i didn't really like the ketupat (compressed boiled rice packets) though. what can i say about the second ketoprak experience? it's not oily, not too peanuty, not too tasteless, not too sour... almost perfect i would say.

ketoprak was then followed by junk food feast at my place. i ate cadbury's almond choco... a full packet of it. and now, i'm having the sore throat syndrome. my throat feels dry and uncomfortable. must drink lots of water. must go gym. i must. i must. i must.

the perfect gadget

ah... am currently listening to delon's ipod while blogging. the sound quality's really good eh. hehe. this co-worker of mine has been promoting the car audio sound system, ipod and altec lansing speaker to me. arrrrghhhh... i'm drolling over the ipod. :O~~~

how i wish there could be something that's all in one. 20 gb mac photo i-pod + nokia 9300 communicator + 5mp digital camera + wifi. design-wise... something similar to ipod, but lighter, less resistant to scratch and with a mirror (oh yea... i'm vain).

oh no... hope the tempation will fade off soon. oh yea, you know me, i change my mind in a sec.

age reflects needs

george, age 92, and jane, age 89, are all excited about their decision to get married.

they go for a stroll to discuss the wedding and on the way they pass a drugstore. george suggests they go in and address the man behind the counter:

george: "are you the owner?"
the pharmacist answers, "yes."
george: "we're about to get married. do you sell heart medication?"
pharmacist: "of course we do."
george: "how about support hose for circulation?"
pharmacist: "definitely."
george: "what about medicine for rheumatism, osteoporosis and arthritis? "
pharmacist: "all kinds."
george: "how about waterproof furniture pads and depends?"
pharmacist: "Yes sir."
george: "hearing aid & denture supplies and reading glasses?"
pharmacist: "yes."
george: "what about eye drops, sleeping pills, geritol and ensure?"
pharmacist: "absolutely."
george: "you sell wheelchairs, walkers and canes?"
pharmacist: "all kinds and sizes. why all of these questions?"
george smiles and replies to the pharmacist, "we'd like to use your store as our bridal registry."

a lil' outta my mind

was awaken by sms an hour ago. the show's at 2pm today, which means that i have to pick up the car soon and be back in ta by around 1pm. must act fast... turbo... turn on od = over drive.

errr... what am i saying? delon would understand the od thingy la. hahaha...

wanted to get this monday off work, but it seems rather impossible. got a meeting early monday morning. maybe i'll sneak off after lunch. muaaahaahaa... *evil laughs*

ps. i secretly installed something somewhere. oh well...it's not a secret.
pps. it seems that when i attend to the customers yesterday, they tend to ask me back about my own fate. when's ur turn? still looking? can't be la? blablabla? whattaaaaa?

moving an age box & java jazz 2005

was having late lunch (around 5pm) with tere at fish&co ta. the food's quite good, not too wonderful though. being nosey, i filled in their questionairre while checking the bill.

everything was great, till i got into the age box. the choices:
- 15-24
- 25-34
- 35-44

i ticked the 25-34 and grumbled about it. tere laughed, offering a handshake. "welcome to the next age box, vi". although i'm not officially 25, but i will be this year. aging is never easy, but well... had a good laugh?

and that reminds me of mikey funnies from the church handout. "shouldn't we be glad that wrinkles don't hurt."

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susy informed about the international java jazz festival 2005, 4-6 march. laura fygi. james brown, eric benet, incognito, earth wind & fire, bubi chen, lizz wright. choices choices... have to decide before monday.

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was overly excited about the exhibition. chatted with one friend, then another, and another. ended up forgetting to take back my car key. in the end, car will have to stay overnight in ta. will need to take a cab to ta early morning tomorrow then church. silly silly me...

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it's the third time i tried (on different times) posting a comment on nanny's site. but the same error message comes up again and again.

Your IP address (202.72.195.34) is detected as an open proxy (a common source of spam) so comment access is denied. If you do not believe you're accessing the net through an open proxy, please contact your ISP or this site's tech support to help resolve the problem.

how annoying!

music: baby it's cold outside - steve tyrell & jane monheit
health: ulcers detected. need healthy diet + sleep + exercise!

unattended matters

had some royce amande chocolat a few days ago. well, norman had given it to tere. and tere let me have more than half of it. i know... i know they are fattening. but girls need a doze of chocolate monthly, right? the royce namas taste better, but i'm quite happy royce amande.

i'm in quite a good mood these few days... had a few nice things that happening to me. :)

work's quite busy... but still under control. however, some personal matters are still left unattended... such as:
- going to kemayoran to change the front car seat cover (i don't know the way there, let alone the way back.)
- paying i-net & credit card bill (will do so via atm tomorrow. or maybe i shd try the i-net/m banking eh?)
- going to supermarket (shampoo... chocolate maybe? what else?)

oh well... im just too lazy and slow. *crawls like a snail*

ps. check out ivan's site. lots of nice flash.

i won't dance

Jane Monheit featuring Michael Buble

i won't dance, don't ask me
i won't dance, don't ask me
i won't dance monsieur with you
my heart won't let my feet do things that they should do

you know what, you're lovely you know what, you're so lovely
and you oh what you do to me
i'm like an ocean wave that's bumped on the shore
i feel so absolutely stumped on the floor

when you dance, you're charming and you're gentle
'specially when you do the continental
and this feeling isn't purely mental
cuz heaven rest us, i'm not asbestos
and that's why i won't dance, why should i?

i won't dance, how could i?
i won't dance, merci beacoup

i know that music lead the way to romance
so if I hold you in arms i won't dance

i won't dance, don't ask me
i won't dance, don't ask me
i won't dance monsieur with you
my heart won't let me feet do things that they want to do

you know what, you're so lovely, ring a ding-ding, you're lovely
and you know what you do to me
i'm like an ocean wave that's bumped on the shore
i feel so absolutely stumped on the floor

when you dance, you're charming and you're gentle
'specially when you do the continental
but this feeling isn't purely mental
for heaven rest us, i'm not asbestos
and that's why i won't dance, i won't dance

i won't dance, merci beacoup
i know that music lead the way to romance

so if i hold you in arms i won't dance

* * *

i like this song instantly when i saw/heard it on mtv. the lyrics, the tone of voice, the tempo; it's just so alluring. very sexy.

says i won't, but means otherwise...

all that jazz

hmnn... it's nearly 5. time to pick up tere and head to the exhibition.

too bad i can't join val for dinner (cos it's kind of far from where the exhibition is). was actually looking forward to meet her again. but well, there's always another next time.

will be having dinner with probably harry, khenni, tere and the rest of ppl who will be there. i miss my cousins, kevin & henry. maybe because i haven't seen them in a while. plus they are such fine company. will just have to wait till they get back to jakarta.

can't wait for tonight's dinner. hopefully it's gonna be a great one.

hmnn... i seem to like jazz quite a lot these days. not too sure why too, but i find the lyrics alluring. especially this one.

music: i won't dance - jane monheit & michael buble

exhibition fright

was in ta till 5 am this morning. everything seems to be under control. although the purple ends up more pinkish. but can't really do much now. i like the four "consultation" area. will post a pic of it when i can.

sent out 27 sms to friends/acquaintances about the exhibition yesterday. 2 replied thanks. their politeness is definitely appreciated. another 2 was curious and asked questions. i wonder how many would actually come.

hmnn... should i go to office or exhibition? *ponders*

plus, i haven't been going to gym for almost 2 weeks. maybe that's why i am having aching all over. need a massage, soon. very soon. natali's relax room seems like a good choice. but driving over to gading is kind of far.

ughh... i wish someone could motivate me at times like this. not work; but about maintaining in peak state. most of you may not understand this. but those who have been to ar seminar may know. and please, do not judge, until you try.

music: how sweet it is (to be loved by you) - tim tamashiro

busy busy...

had a busy morning today. got a phone call from boss the first thing i arrived. blablabla... blablabla... then continuous phone calls from all sort of people.

i just don't really enjoy a stressful morning. but the phone's calming down now. :)

valentine's day!

when i was still finishing up some work in the office, the phone buzzed. val asked for dinner together with her friends. then tere called to asked for family dinner. decided to attend the family dinner first, then probably join val and her friends later. but changed my mind after the dinner, cos i was too full and it was kind of late already.

saw a few other friends at nanbantei. susy had her hair ceramically permed. i like it on her. she looked fresh. i bet if khenni saw susy's perm, she would probably want it as well.

got a lot of kisses from araya tonight (5 on the cheek). am delighted about it. a nice day overall, although i freaked a little at work.

* * *

delon just sms to say that he will be coming late to work tomorrow, as he is still in ta. i felt guilty. the exhibition starts on the 17th. color pantone did not turn out as expected. well, things happen sometimes.

when colleague is having headache and under pressure, i must try my best to remain calm and think with a clear head.

better sleep now. have things to do tomorrow.

happy valentine's day, friends.

valentine's day sermon

was on the phone with sr till very late (or should i say early morning) yesterday. well, he wasn't in his tip top mode. so i accompanied him for a chat. he's an enjoyable chat mate, for a matter of fact. although what i spoke of meant nothing most of the time. hehe...

woke up later than usual today. but made it to the church in the end.

the sermon this morning was linked to the up coming valentine's day. it's about love and the way that love should be. the speaker asked us to try to replace "love" with "jesus" for 1 corinthians 13: 4-8. and read it our loud.

so it goes like this:
jesus is patient, jesus is kind. he does not envy, he does not boast, he is not proud. jesus is not rude, he is not selfseeking, he is not easily angered, he keeps no record of wrongs. jesus does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. he always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. jesus never fails.

that, i could read with ease. no problem at all. then, the speaker asked us to replace jesus with our own name and read it out loud.

"evi is patient, evi is kind. she does not envy, she does not boast..." i couldn't go on. was either uttering softly or totally not agreeing to the sentences that i was reading. felt ashamed for a moment.

the sermon goes on saying that love should not be just a feeling. it should be falling in love many times, with the same person, over and over again. both julie and i agreed that it ain't easy. but shall try, at the very least.

later, a women (lynn ol i think) came up stage, to promote about foster parenting kids in indonesia. i found out that it costs as little as 700 rb per year to foster parent a kid. the main purpose of the donation would be for their education. and next week, 100 kids shall be up for adoption. more details shall be explained after the next week's sermon. i hope to foster parent a kid, if i can. but we'll see what happens next week.

music: nice 'n easy - tim tamashiro

love is...

received a comment from ivan about my relationship blog, which made me did some impact thinking.

"love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not selfseeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

many of you, may find the above 'love's check list' familiar, just like i did. however, i never really thought about the real meaning of it, till last night.

it seems to me that, after my previous relationship, i was too exhausted, too drained, to love again.

being with my ex was great. and i still think he is a wonderful guy. he made me see things from a different perspective. however, did not share the same long term goals.

after being in the giving situation for sometime, i was drained. then i turned to be selfish, demanding, tempermental, impatient and proud. i guess i just did not any more love inside me. plus, i thought i was almost self sufficient. but i was wrong.

if i did hurt anyone's feelings during the past few months, i would like to apologize. if you are experiencing the same thing as i did, maybe you would like to rethink again. because with love; you will not get, until you really give.

music: carnival - the cardigans
mood: delighted and soothing
learning: to love again, wholeheartedly

lazy bone...

was in no mood for work today, so i download pics from the digicam memory chip and color adjusted these pics. they r from the previous bandung trip and hary's bday party.

from my blog, you'd probably know that i am very visual. hehe.

do enjoy the pics. and do give ur comments. i personally think 'the mole' is funny. had lots... and i mean lots... of fun taking that particular pic.

went to the aksara bookshop just then (was going to ex for gym)... but they didn't have the book that i wanted. guess will just have to go to get it in gramedia or qb.

wish list for valentine: a black helium balloon tied up with pink ribbon (or vice versa).

hary's bday - right

and now, the other side of the table. the little girl in white is araya, hary & natali's precious possesion.

hary's bday - left

left side of the dinner table celebrating for hary.

the birthday boy

hary's twenty ninth birthday celebration at penang bistro.
left to right: natali, candra's wife, candra & birthday boy

the mole?

guess who's the real mole?

new year smile

smile guys! *snap*

time to toast

three wine lovers; all dressed in black.

zorro

zorro shot, just right before new year eve's dinner.

cowboy hats...

khenni and me, in silver cowboy hats.

play time

hmnn... kev need to get something out of his nose? hehe...

sweet at sierra

william, me & kev. don't we look sweet together?

bookshop

need to go to bookshop soon, evi. as in: today or tomorrow, the latest.

chinese new year 2556

happy chinese new year 2556!

well, i just woke up about half hour ago. but is currently still on the blur mode. got most of my ang paos already, so shall not worry too much. hehe. have you got your ang paos (red packets filled with financial increaments)?

today's way of waking up wasn't as good as expected. wanted to pee at 8 something, so i went out of my room to the toilet. mum saw me and yelled out my name. i told her i still wanted to continue sleeping. when i went back to the room to lie down on bed, another form of disturbance was discovered. the tv was blasting out classical songs. oh no!

then the phone buzzed... sms. turns that i have nine cny related sms. well, instead of sending them a mass reply, i've decided to be nice and personalise each and every replies. by now, another 5 more cny sms. the most popular one cny sms in my society seems to be an indonesian poem/ryhmes asking for ang paos.

will be going to michael's place later on. is looking forward to some fun fun fun... laughs laughs laughs. too bad henry and limi is not here with us this year.

last night, the air con was dripping again. i switched it off, wiped the floor and turned it on again in half hour. no drips till morning. was happy with no drips. the funny air con in my room.

the-after-work-monday

i just got home not long ago from hary's second birthday dinner party. celcius at plaza semanggi. the food, price and service was all above average. am quite satisfied.

went to some dunno i-can't-remember-the-name cafe at pelangi later on. ordered hot chocolate and it was like super duper sweet. ughh... chit chat for a while before all of us were too tired.

tomorrow will be reunion dinner with the rest of the family at indra's place. too bad henry isn't in jakarta to join us. however, would love to meet the rest of the cousins for a long chat. and maybe some games too...

unexpected

the last few days was filled with a few unexpected events...

unexpected quotation of order from a customer; followed by the unexpected bargaining skills of that same customer; then an unexpected cousin's belated birthday party celebration; unexpected sms; unexpected traffic jam at sudirman on saturday night; unexpected phonecall; unexpected meeting with a friend; unexpected topic in the sunday's sermon; unexpected mood change; unexpectedly accompanied mum to shopping, unexpected sms reply, unexpected news from a friend, unexpected support from another friend, unexpected heavy topic at today's presentation which leads to unexpected stress. and soon, another unexpected belated unexpected birthday party by the same cousin. phewww....

well, the unexpected always happens when i plan my week ahead. not too sure why. maybe because i live in a society/surroundings where everyone's mindset is to decide only when time is up. maybe i'm indecisive. maybe my life is influenced by many; so i usually try to accomodate their schedule. maybe simply because i like changes.

* * *

*drumrolls*... and now, an introduction to pomatoman's (a.k.a herman) and his parther's newly established company: pomato. well, pomatoman has a personal site too, which i fancy of. the lucky guy now works in the same building as his wife. how nice is that?

* * *

just got an sms from my honey, which was very sweet.

h: honey, my boyfriend's brother bought two big packs of wasabi peanuts for me. i will give one to you. cos if i am correct, you like those wasabi peanuts, right?
e: you are right, honey. my honey's da best! i love u till death.
h: i love u till death, too. he.. he.. he... miss you, honey.

may not seem special to others. but that, made my face glows. not bcos of the wasabi nuts, of course!

mood: bad in the morning, but vibrant right now
health: not in tip top condition but still good enough
music: last christmas - human nature

lost deal

it's confirmed. my hopes, crushed. lost a deal today! the director of this potential company, told me that they have decided to put the project on pending. nothing will be done for the near thre3 months. disappointed. then called up another promising client. she did not pick up the call. no good with clients today.

but well, i love my job. although i get sick/stressed/anxious/bored/tired/blablabla about it sometime, i still love it. and i enjoy working with the people around me. most probably because, i get things done my way most of the time. haha.

* * *

chinese new year's coming. will be having thre3 family reunion food feasts soon. have not been going to gym for more than 1ne week. ate lots of junk food the past fou4 days. oh no... maybe i should motivate myself with a "reward" if i hit the t10 kg loss. tiffany maybe? hmnn... still considering.

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also, changed the blog photo. the new photo suits perfectly (same color tone) with the template. pleased... of course. with lots of satisfying nods.

sweet tooth

rocye nama chocolate (which has choco powder all around) is one of the best chocolate i have tasted all my life. the first time i ate it, it just melted beautifully inside my mouth.

fresh cream is a main ingredient for these namas, therefore namas are exteremely sensitive to heat. if you purchase them (around $15 SGD), the salesgirl will be pack them in an aluminium bag accompanied by cooling gel pack. that kind of packaging should make the namas last in room temperature for 45-60 mins. and once home, namas will have to go straight to fridge. rocye namas could be purchased in takashimaya and suntec city mall, singapore.

lindt is another good chocolate. and so is godiva. but nothing beats rocye namas, at least till now.

cherie amour and pocky

have been listening to my cherie amour by susan wong for the past few days. would like to share the lyrics and the joy with others:

my cherie amour, lovely as a summer day
my cherie amour, distant as the milky way
my cherie amour, pretty little one that i adore
you’re the only girl my heart beats for
how i wish that you were mine

in a cafe or sometimes on a crowded street
i’ve been near you, but you never noticed me
my cherie amour, won’t you tell me how could you ignore
that behind that little smile i wore
how i wish that you were mine

na na na na na na, na na na na na na
na na na na na na, na na na na na na

maybe someday, you’ll see my face amoung the crowd
maybe someday, I’ll share your little distant cloud
oh, cherie amour, pretty little one that I adore
you’re the only girl my heart beats for
how I wish that you were mine

na na na na na na, na na na na na na
na na na na na na, na na na na na na

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also, my obessession for pocky by glico. the few that i like or have been dying to try (not much variety in jakarta) are below. another of my favourite japanese brand snack/sweets/choco/whatever, meiji. the inspiration to put these snacks on blog came from a japanese site, which was introduced to me by andy.

relationships...

today, an sms from a dear friend. well, i was asking him something, then together with my reply, he mentioned some problem that he currently faces with his gf. girl feels like she's being captured like a prisoner. girl wants to be free to do the things she wants. guy wants girl to listen to guy, cos guy feels that there should be commitments in a relationship. guy seem to think that they have different perception in life. so he asked for another opinion and reassurance.

also, a week ago or so, ms. wonderful girl called up to tell me that she felt her bf had changed from mr. nice guy to mr. temperamental. she said he used to be real nice and is still an absolutely thoughtful, wonderful, pleasing bf when he is in an excellent mood; but it's "storming" it is really bad. she was sick of the frequent "storms" and could not take it anymore. all i could do was try to calm her down. i love them both and always feel that they are great together. after then phone call, i got kind of worried and shared with two others to ease my burden and ask for advice. one said, as it would soon be over. true enough, they are back to the lovie dovie mode in less than 48 hours and is still in that mode till now.

serious relationships need trust and privacy. in a long-lasting relationship, each partner should have the privilege to some privacy and time away from one another. life time partners should share the same long term visions. easy for me to state, but difficult when it's time to perform.

how much of time is too much for each other? how many times a week should couples, who live in the same city and both working, see each other? once, thrice or every single day? i cannot help but wonder, is spending time together correlated to the success of a relationship? once a week meeting seems to invite third party involvement, since both parties only care and is willing to make a day for each other. everyday will most likely make both partner sick of each other, have nothing much to talk about and thus fight over useless small matters. maybe thrice a week is good, at least it lets both parties have the chance to make time for their hobbies, friends and also miss each other. an abundance of everything is always not good, even when it comes love.

music: the first cut is the deepest - sheryl crow, lovefool - cardigans
mood: average and contented
health: not fit, "heaty"

tired

just got out of bed not too long ago, but it didn't even feel like the sleep was enough. not a good nor effective sleep anyway. feels like my bone's gonna crush real soon. body aching all over, of course. still have lots of work to catch up on but i already promised michael that i'll go to yong po's burial ceremony. ok, gotta cheer up. there's no way i should start a day looking sulky. *try to do a few fake smiles*

well, actually smiled when trying to do the fake smiles. hehe. it's not so bad after-all.

look: sleepy, tired with dark eye rings